It's always you- Adam driver

Sixteen

December 1st

Our first Christmas together. Today we're getting a tree and decorations for our house. He had asked me if we wanted a decorator and was shocked when I said no, my only guess for that would be that Sarah would get a decorator all the time. I don't need a decorator when he's 6ft 2.

"What do you want for Christmas?", he asks me as we walk around the aisles.  "I've been thinking of things but I can't chose".

"Please don't spend a lot of money on me Adam, just get me some cute pyjamas".

"No I'm not just getting you pyjamas okay, I'll decide myself", he says making you smile. "What?".

"I'm just happy", you say and he smiles too. "I don't need anything flashy. Something special".

"Adam", we hear familiar voices. "Dammit we were gonna surprise you", his dad says hugging him.

"Dad what are you doing here?".

"Were all staying over for Christmas, how nice would it be to spend this year as a family I mean you're not working this month so why not?".

"Well you can stay at our place". I say. "We're just picking things out to decorate the house with you guys can help".

"No decorator this year? Guess it was just Sarah", his brother says.

"Yeah", they laugh.

"How are you feeling sweetie?", Cheryl asks walking with me.

"Oh I'm all better, honestly. Have you started planning for July?".

"Of course! We have the venue and caterer at the moment I'm just leaving it until January you know, get Christmas out of the way".

"Oh yeah, well if you need any help i would be more  than happy too".

"Sweetie look at this", Adam says to me. I love when he calls me that. "We have to get that for the door".

"Yes we do", I say taking the great big Reef from him. "We still need to find a tree, how about you and Johnny do that with your dad?".

"Sure, meet you at the car", he kisses my cheek then they all scurry off together.

"Great now we can actually shop without kids around". Cheryl says and I laugh. "So, have you and Adam talked about your future?".

"Our future?".

"Yeah you know, marriage, kids. I mean you got the house you just need the other pieces".

"Well kids would be a no for a while but no I guess we never talked about it I mean we've been dating for what 7 months".

"Time does not mean a thing, if you love him you should tell him about it. There's no point wasting time. Red and green?", she hands me boxes of baubles. "And gold".

The rest of the day I just kept thinking about what Cheryl said, even when we went home and I watched him put up the tree I couldn't help but think if he ever thought about us.

"Hey you gonna help or just Sit there?", Adam says to me lifting me up. "This tree won't decorate itself".

"It's done". I say looking at the now full tree. He lifts me up onto his shoulders while Cheryl hands me the star. "If you drop me I'll die", I laugh holding on.

I put it on top and Johnny snaps a few pictures then Adam slowly set me down. "There, see you didn't die".

"It looks amazing", I say looking around at them all. "Hot chocolate?".

"Wine for us", Michael says.

"course", I walk to the kitchen and get out the cups.

"Hey, what are you thinking of?", I see Adam come in. "You're totally spaced out".

"It's nothing", I say carrying on. "Well".

"Well what?", he came close so no one was listening.

"Something Cheryl said it's nothing honestly", I feel Adams arms snake around me as his chin rests on my head and he sways to the music that was playing.

"She said it to me too", he said and I turn around. "I've been thinking the same thing all day. 'I wonder if Eliza ever thinks of that".

"You did?".

"Don't let it get in between what we have okay? Don't worry. Now hurry up so we can go fuck", he says quietly making me laugh.

"Not with your dad in the same house".

"Well you'll just have to be quiet".

"Definitely not", you whisper back kissing his neck. "I bought something for you by the way, well for me but for your entertainment".

"Oh my god what is it. A toy? Please don't tell me it's lingerie cause I will throw you up stairs".

"Go sit back down and I'll consider showing you", I say and he groans turning back around. I laugh to myself as I make drinks for everyone and take them over.

I sit on Adams lap as we all talk about plans for his dads wedding and where it's going to be. For the first time in a long time I felt like I belonged to a family, I felt loved here. I took a second to remove my self from the conversation and look at everyone laughing, smiling. "Are you okay?", Adam asks me.

"I'm more than okay", I kiss his cheek. "Guys I think I'm gonna go to bed now".

"Aw come on let's watch a movie", his dad says.

"Sorry", I stand up. "Tomorrow I need everyone's preferences for dinner".

The home phone rang and so I answered it. "Hello", I answer the phone but then it just cuts off. "Weird, must of been the wrong number", I say.

"I don't know why you even have a house phone". Cheryl says as Adams phone rang. I look at him confused as he takes it to the other room. "Work?".

"I don't know", I say. "Goodnight guys", I say going up stairs and lying in bed.

Don't overthink it. It could of been work and they thought it was the wrong number.

'They're watching a movie, I'll be up in 5'- Adam.

I jump up and find my new outfit. It was a Christmas themed one, it had red underwear with a gold lining and a matching bow for my chest. Like a Christmas present.

"Where are you?", I hear him.

"Close your eyes", I say. "It's a surprise". I peek my head around the corner to see his eyes where screwed shut and I stand in the door way of the bathroom. "Open".

"Oh my god", he runs to me and lifts me up. "Oh wow".

"Pull the bow", I say and he does slowly as it falls to the floor. "Early present".

"It's the best gift". He takes me to the bed and kisses down my chest. "So so beautiful".

"Adam the phone!", we hear his dad call from downstairs.

He groans and rests his head on my stomach. "I have to get that", he says.

"Now?", I sit up.

"It's important", he goes to the door. "I'll be back up". He says before leaving me.

I wait 15 minutes and then get into bed, I didn't want to wait around for him. What could be more important?

I hear everyone else go to bed and then Adam came up later on. With my back turned away from the door I could only hear his movements. He sighed and slowly got into bed before kissing my shoulder lightly. "I love you", he whispers before I hear him settle down on the other side.

For most of the night I just wondered what the calls were about. Is it a movie opportunity he's not allowed to talk about? Is it someone? Someone I'm not supposed to find out about. No he wouldn't... would he?