"ANNAA" My father called me loudly. I took off my shoes as quick as I can, and followed the sound. My dad was in the kitchen.
I bursted out laughing "Di-did you just burn the meal?"I couldn't even stop laughing, and my father's black face made the scene more hilarious.
"Whatever" my father sayed annoyed.
"Go rest! I'll clean this mess" I suggested after noticing how pale and tired he looked.
After cleaning. I sat next to my father. He really looks tired!
"Do you even rest these days? you look really very pale!"
"Don't worry dear. I'm strong enough to deal with this!" He gave me a weak smile.
We stared at eachothers in an awkward silence.
I just realized that I am really selfish! My father doesn't have a stable job, and it's hard for him to make money and how do we spend that money? on my education? makeup? newest clothings? the most expensive bags? I'm really very selfish...
The silence got more awkward, the atmosphere was warm, but it felt very cold!
"Why" my father broke the silence, he asked coldly.
I didn't understand the question, but I had bad feelings about it ...
"Why what?"
"You know, I really love you and i wish you all the best in your life. But recently I'v noticed that you have changed a lot. Can you tell me what's going on?"
I just lowered my head.
"I will not judge, i promise..." he added.
Somehow, what he said, made my heart very warm! I really needed someone to talk to, but it wasn't my dad! He really had a lot of problems already, I can't let him add my problems to his list.
"Okay," he nodded letting me continue.
"I just wanted to make new friends. I-i felt lonely so I decided to change myself a little.."
"I understand." He said softly.
"How do you feel after having a lot of friends? " he asked.
"H-happy?" I said trying my hardest to fake a smile.
Well, I just messed up. I was waiting for a lecture, but he just gave me a weak smile?
"Dear, i'm going out to buy us something to eat, ok?" He stood up.
"No! You don't have to do that, i'm going"
"If you say so.." He said
I wore my jacket, and headed to the door.
"Good bye father!" I waved.
He didn't answer, he walked up to me slowly and pulled me closer to him wrapping his arms around me. His embrace was warm, and his big, strong arms seemed very protective, i felt safe, safe from this painful world, this is exactly what i need every morning! The world around me melted away as I hugged him back, not wanting the moment to end.
"I want you to be happy, because you deserve it, i want you to be happy because it makes me happy to see you the way you were meant to be. Dear, you are perfect just the way you are! With all your flaws and problems, there's no need to change anything, all you need to change is the thoughts that you have to change"
I felt something...
i don't even know how to describe it!
But it was nice and bad at the same time...
"Dad, i-i really appreciate that, thank you so much!" I said holding back my tears.
