Finding myself

💛part 7💛

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I was trying to catch my breath as i stood up, the air was so thick, I found it hard to swallow.  The fear was Gobling me up.

I tried to do something but nothing!
It was quiet, "Dad?"... Nothing...

"NO, NO, NO, NO This wasn't supposed to happen! I-i thought that you would be my today and my tomorrows?..." I screamed.

"Don't be this cruel to me!"

I gave his lifeless body one last glance before i-I felt nothing anymore...

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"Where am i?"

The stark smell of bleach was overwhelming.  I scrunched my eyes at the bright light that was sipping through my closed eyelids.  I felt powerless and heavy. I could not move my hand, my head or my body.

I slowly started blinking, desperately trying to open my eyes and see what's around me. Where am I? As blinding light slowly subsided I could take a look around my surroundings. I was at the hospital.

The room was pristine clean and gloomy. Typical hospital bed, the walls were a sickly green color and the linens were grayish. The place looked nothing like a room where a patient should be motivated to get better. If anything the murky room was making me even more nauseous.

I could not remember how I got here but I knew for sure that I wanted out as soon as possible. Preferably right now.

I forced myself to get up! I wore my jacket and leaved.

Though my eyes were open I couldn't think of why; my heart was pounding, mind empty.

"WHERE ARE YOU?" I screamed in the empty raod...

Without my father I am a tree stuck forever in winter, bereft of leaves and shivering under a blanket of frost.

My world is cold, my limbs empty of the life they once had.

"When you were present on this earth I could never be alone no matter how near or far you were, but now that you are dead the loneliness remains no matter how close others are. "

"I miss you..."

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