Denial (boyxboy)

Chapter 14

Sky's P.O.V.

It's been the best three months of my entire life. Everyday Jeffrey manages to make each day with him better than the last. I'm so lucky in that he's a very considerate lover. Well, I'm not sure if one can be called a lover since we haven't actually made love yet. He wants to wait. I'll be eighteen in three months and he just wants to make sure that I don't feel taken advantage of in any way.

See considerate! I just never knew the feelings of euphoric ecstacy one can feel from experiencing an orgasm. The power that one can have when pleasing your lover can give you such a high. I'm pretty sure I've come just from watching his face as he does.

I never imagined that I would wake up every morning in Jeffrey's arms. I wake up every morning wondering if I'm still dreaming, then he smiles at me and tells me he loves me and I'm his. He's done so much for me. He helped me set up a bank account so I could now safely put my paychecks away without fear of being robbed. Ofcourse he wouldn't let me spend a single dime of my own money. Ellis makes sure that I eat more than just three meals a day. It's actually pretty funny. The first time he brought me lunch at work the entire office looked on in wonder. Ellis is not the kind of man you argue with so like a good boy I ate all of my food.

Over these past months I have managed to put on, as Loretta calls it, healthy weight and since Jeffrey is an enthusiastic work-out kind of guy, I just followed his lead. Now I find as I look in the mirror, that I have defined muscle peeking here and there on my body. As I also look at the scars on my body, I brush my fingers lightly over the raised bumps of the scars and know that soon enough I'll have to tell Jeffrey about the most horrific night of my life. I've spent so much time trying to forget that I'm in pure fear of just the memory.

As Jeffrey has learned, there are some nights when I wake up screaming in pure terror from the memories that can paralize me with fear and once he envelops me in his arms, I'm able to go to sleep. I've come to realize that I'm so hopelessly inlove with him that the bigger fear now is loosing him. I won't survive. I know this! Everyday that passes I see the unanswered questions on his face. I just don't know if I can. He always says to me, "When you're ready Okay!" and then he always caresses the side of my face with the back of his hand. He loves to touch me every chance he gets. He says my skin feels like silk to his fingertips.

As I stand in front of the mirror attempting to get ready for work, he comes up behind me and wraps his arms around my waist and breaths into my ear, "Damn, you're so sexy. Will you still love me when I'm an old man?" Having found that I love to tease and play with him, I respond, "What are you talking about. You are an old man!" and he just cracks up uncontrollably. Then he runs his tongue slightly against the bottom of my earlobe and we're off. Apparently everyone has what he calls a sweet spot. That is mine. I always feel this wave vibrate up and down my body before finally stopping and centering solely on my dick. I have no self control once that happens so resigned to not be late for work, I pull away from him and say, "No, no,no. We're not going to be late for work again. And before you say it, I don't care if you own the company. I can only speculate as to what your employees are thinking, saying about us." He sighs and says, "Okay fine. But for making me wait, I'm going to punish you." and with that he sauntered to his bathroom then stops, turns just enough to look over his shoulder at me with this look of hunger that almost had me follow him right into the bathroom but I held my ground.

So now Jeffrey has been pushing the issue of college. I never went after graduating so early because there was no money. He has offered to pay for all of it. All I have to tell him is where I want to go, and what I want to major in. I don't want him to do this for me. It's too much but if there's one thing you learn about Jeffrey is this, once he sets his mind to something, there is no stopping him in anyway. So I'm giving it some thought because I don't want this subject to turn into our first fight.

Long ago I knew what dream I had but it was ripped from me on that fateful night. Stop, I tell myself as I feel my eyes instantly start to water as the memories try to push their way in. I take a breath to steady myself and he comes out naked and wet YUM, and he says, "Listen, Jacob is coming over tonight for dinner. He wants to talk to you. Tell you a very important story in the hopes that maybe you will be able to release even a little of what you hold inside. All I ask is that you listen and if you decide to confide in him but still don't want to talk to me, that's fine. The goal is to just talk, to someone, okay." I nod hesitently. Now I'm dreading dinner. Great!

You would think with the type of relationship that Jeffrey and Jacob have I'd be jealous, worried but honestly, I understand almost completely why they are the way they are. Jacob is amazing and if not for Jeffrey I could have easily fallen for him. He's just as gorgeous as Jeff, same height, same hair color, same build just the eyes, his are the clearest hazel you have ever seen. But unfortunately for him, my favorite color is green. But like Ellis, Jacob has become a most trusted friend. So I'll give him and Jeff the benefit of the doubt tonight at dinner...