Denial (boyxboy)

Chapter 18

Sky's P.O.V.

It's been almost another three months to the day since I revealed part of my story to Jeffrey and Jacob. Jeffrey had asked me for permission to tell Ellis because on the now rare occasions when I still have my nightmares, Ellis is always there to comfort me with a BIG cup of hot chocolate. You would think that sounds childish right? Not if you had Ellis' hot chocolate, you would understand. No one else knows though. It's still pretty new to me, Jeff and Jacob knowing.

I also thank God everyday for Jacob. Our friendship has grown with this bond that is becoming quite unbreakable. I was afraid at some point that maybe Jeff would get jealous but never that. He simply is quite perfect and I've been thinking over everything that he's done and continues to do for me. He puts me and my feelings first in all things. So I've made a decision but I'm really scared.

My eighteenth birthday is in one week and I'm not sure what Jeffrey has planned but knowing him and his posse, Loretta, Jacob, and Ellis, it was going to be interesting. My plan is to hopefully get Jeff so drunk that I'll be able to seduce him into going all the way with me. I want him so bad. Don't get me wrong. Everytime he brings me to orgasm it just helps sends those nightmares right back to hell where they belong. But I also noticed that there is still something missing, like I'm not complete.

So I started doing some research and pretty much came to the conclusion that I need him inside me. With such a ferocity of lust I know I cannot go much longer without fully experiencing love making. I just hope that this works. I don't want him to be angry with me. Besides, I know he has needs and I want to be able to take care of my man the way he does me.

I wish I could talk to someone about it but I can't. So hopefully this won't blow up in my face. I love looking out the windows in Jeff's condo. I could get lost in the view. I suddenly feel a pair of arms wrap around my waist and a set of lips kiss the nape of my neck. "Listen, my man is going to be home any minute so if he finds you here well...", I say teasingly to which he replies, "Never in a million years. You belong to me and I would rather die then spend one day without you." "You do know that you're the only one for me right. That I can't even imagine my life without you anymore. That I just...", and I started to sob lightly so he turns me around in his arms and kisses my tears away only to land on my lips and leave me breathless. He looks at me and says, "I've been doing some thinking. There's no pressure but I know what I want Sky and that's to spend the rest of my life with you so I want you to give it some thought. How would you feel about marrying me?" "I-I-I d-don't kn-know."

Jeff says to me, "Remember, no pressure. I just wanted you to know that it's an option okay." I think to myself, yeah right. I know you Jeffrey and if there's one thing that has always remained constant these past wonderful six months is that when Jeffrey wants something he gets it. How am I suppose to marry this man. He doesn't even know my real name and you need that in order for the union to be legal right. Oh God why, is this because I plan on seducing him into fucking me. What the hell!

I wish I could talk to someone about all of this. Everyone around me are Jeffrey's loyal followers. I could never broach this subject with any of them. What am I going to do. Well I guess let's start with my well laid plans of seduction and then go from there.

Bringing me out of my thoughts, Jeff says, "So I was thinking that maybe if you want, Jacob and I could take you to this really classy gay nightclub for your birthday." "Really? I've never been to any kind of club straight or gay. What's it called?, I asked him. "Natt Kylfa! Yes I know an interesting name but my friend owns the club and he is..." he says but I cut him off without thinking and say, "Scandinavian, it means night club. How quaint." Then he just looks at me not sure of what exactly to say so I say it for him. "Yes, I am scandinavian and yes I am quite fluent in my language. It's just been a long time since I've had to use it but it's like riding a bike!" Then he laughs and says, " You always find a way to surprise and amaze me everyday." I think to myself, little does he know...