If I Hated You

Face to Face with Fletcher

SPOV

I keep on walking or walking while running as my adrenaline rush is creeping out of me as what transpired in that event. I never in a million years thought that it will be ending in a disaster. I don't know if I still have a face to show on her after what happen. I don't know what also happen to those girls. I'm hoping they are okay I mean I didn't do anything wrong I didn't insist to wait for her. If I know that this will gonna happen I shouldn't come here. I'm okay to see her from a far and even through social media. Why did I fucking decide to see her in all places... in this country?. I know Thailand is such a beautiful country but I don't think the people here like me to be here or just those girls. I didn't want to be rude to them as I can see that they are younger than I am so one of the things I always did is to run away from it. I know! I'm a fucking coward.. One of the things I always avoiding is a misunderstanding or explain myself to people because I always do that since I was younger and I don't want to go back there.

When I arrive to my hotel where I'm staying I just throw my body at my bed and release a deep sigh. I think sleep will help me to think clearly so that I can decide what I will do. Stay? or leave and go back to Australia?... Sleep takes me in after my mussing on what to do here as I don't feel like staying here anymore.

I woke up in my phone ringing.. When I look up I saw that my sister is calling me "Hey Shan! How's Thailand?." She asks. I just release a deep sigh. "that bad huh?" you can hear from her voice the sadness she feels for me the same I'm feeling right now. "I feel that everything I do here is a disaster." "Oh no! What happen?" my sister ask me. So in the next 30 minutes I tell her everything what happen from the breakfast meeting, my encounter to the lady that I brought some food and lastly on what happen in the meet and greet at the plaza. "What a fucking bitches! How dare they?! and What the hell did you do? You shouldn't leave there, you should stay there so those bitches can envy you for all I care! I hope that Fletcher girl said something to them." I just sigh on her because I still don't have enough energy to face what happen this day. 

"Do you think I should just go back there?" I ask my sister. "What are you insane!" I put away my phone from my ear in how loud my sister's voice is.  "You flew all the way from Australia to Thailand for nothing? are you fucking kidding me?." she continued to rant at me. 

"I just feel I'm just wasting my time staying here. Any longer I'm here I feel like I'm loosing my sanity. Besides I already met her and saw her in person. I think that's enough right?." "No it's not! You've been waiting for months to saw her perform in person and now it will happen by tomorrow and you want to back out?! I swear to god Shannon if you go back here without watching her I will fucking kick your ass to go back to where she will be or I'll drag you to her concert here in our country and I don't care how old you are but I will do that by your hair!!!." my sister shouted at me via phone. So it's final I need to say here til her concert or else Casey Beveridge is not joking on her threat.

"I have to go though I haven't eat yet since this morning. I will call you tomorrow or whatever okay?" I tell my sister so that she just end this phone call. "Call me tomorrow okay?! even after the concert I need proof or anything that you really watch her or else. I will know! k bye!." just like that she end the call. 

I just keep laying down at my bed while staring at the ceiling wondering what will gonna happen tomorrow. While checking my phone where good to eat, there's a notification pop out regarding  where she will be in attendance in an event in the mall later this evening. I contemplate if I will gonna go or not, part of me want to go there but another part of me doesn't want to go there just to avoid any commotion that will happen again if ever those girls is there as well.

After awhile I decide to get ready to go out and eat and be a tourist for the day............

When I get to the lobby to give back my key card to the reception. I notice the group of people getting of an elevator and walking towards the reception. I move fast and out of the hotel so that they won't see me they might think I'm stalking them. In all the hotel in this country why we're in the same hotel?.  Fuck I'm screwed!. Hope they won't notice me.