ᴛᴡɪʟɪɢʜᴛ [ʜᴀʏʟᴏʀ]

T. E. N.

I am very frustrated about everything happening around me. I find no peace, I keep having my battle with my inner devils. I hate myself that I couldn't help him, I never thought I'd see a person dying in front of me and I'd be standing there helplessly.

It has been a month since he died. Rob is angry that I'm sorry about his death. He says I should be happy that he is no more. now, I started to doubt Rob might be planning this.

''Taylor, stop crying over that douche. He doesn't deserve your tears. If I were you I'd have gone to a party, stop crying'' Robert tried to calm me. '' ROBERT, HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT? THAT MAN DIED IN FRONT ME I STOOD THERE I COULD DO NOTHING WHY ARE YOU BEING SO IN-HUMAN?'' I yell at him. '' HOW DARE YOU SAY I'M INHUMAN?'' He yells back walking closer to me. '' YOU ARE THE ONE WHO CAN'T SEE AND UNDERSTAND HOW FUCKING THIS WORLD IS WORKING. YOU THINK EVERYONE IS KIND THEN YOU'RE FUCKING WRONG PEOPLE KILL PEOPLE FOR THEIR NEEDS, THAT GUY SHOULD DIE A LONG TIME AGO. IF I WERE HIM I'D HAVE KILLED MYSELF FOR DOING THAT TO A WOMAN. HE FUCKING USED YOU, HE TRIED TO ABUSE YOU, HE TOOK YOU TO BARS AND DID YOU FORGET THAT ONCE YOU DID DRUGS? HE FORCED THAT INTO YOU BECAUSE OF THAT REASONS YOU ARE LIVING FAR AWAY FROM MUM AND DAD. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU ALL LAST SPOKE? YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA. I SAID YES FOR YOU RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE I THOUGHT HE TURNED TO BE SOMETHING GOOD BUT YOU HID HIS CHARACTER  UNDER HIS SLEEVES. I WOULDN'T BE SAD LIKE YOU FOR WHAT HE DID TAYLOR'' He yells. I looked into his eyes while I'm tearing apart. His tears were falling too. I never saw him in this anger. He is frustrated. Frustrated about my relationship with him. He did a lot worse to me Matt used me but I let that go because I loved him. '' Taylor, I didn't mean to point that you did something wrong, I said these words because I've been carrying this weight for all these years. You should let him go in your thoughts too. If he was good, you know I'd never say no or rant like this. Try to understand. I don't mind if you stop talking to me. I just want you to get over the fact you couldn't help him cause he doesn't deserve it and stop thinking about him.'' he left me alone with all his words repeating in my head.

''Tay-Tay'' I turned around, I saw Lautner walking into the cafeteria. I wipe my tears and looked down at my cup. He sat opposite to me. ''hey, don't cry. please, I hate to see you like this I want her who is always bright like the sun and clumsy.'' he tries to cheer me up. A small smile wash on my face. '' see that's what I am talkin' about'' he pulled his smug face. I shook my head and looked at him. He is in disguise. '' I was thinkin' to take you out tonight after your work how about that?'' he asks excitingly. I nod in response. he walks to me kissed my lips. I kiss him back. It wasn't rough it was simple yet a vulnerable kiss. He pulled off.

'' Baby I have to go, my manager, is bitching me off today. I'll see ya tonight'' he waves and left before I could reply. I stood up walked out of  the office.

I walked into my cabin sat on the chair looked around. I saw everyone working like this is the last day to work. I finished my work a day ago because I distracted my mind onto it.

'' What is happening?'' I ask Joe who is running towards his cabin. '' Boss is going to come, he is very strict trust me you don't have to deal with him so ready up with your work,'' he said very fast and went to his cabin. I pulled my charts out and I placed them and looked at Hanna who is very busy checking it. if not Niall, Liam, and Louis who would it be? a Satan? I roll my eyes at how everyone is scared of this 'boss' I don't find a reason to be afraid of. I should be when I did something wrong well I didn't do any. I checked my work one last time.

I saw everyone freeze. I followed their gaze. I saw a man walking while Niall's PA, Klaire opening the door for him. I still couldn't see his face cause he is busy talking to Klaire. I can see his back he is wearing a suit with brown short hair. I bet his hair is soft. He looked around I froze when he did. He looked around and stopped near me. he locked his gaze with me. I gulp and felt sick when I saw him. I furrow my brows and my breath hitched in my throat. What the fuck? life must be fucking kidding me. he stopped looking at me with his sharp gaze clenching his jaw. I looked at him dead in my eyes. He is the first one to break it. He walks to the boss cabin still looking at me.