ᴛᴡɪʟɪɢʜᴛ [ʜᴀʏʟᴏʀ]

T. W. E. L. V. E.

Niall POV

''where is he? Niall'' Liam asked me. I sigh and grab a bottle from the refrigerator. I took a sip and glared at Liam. he asked the same question for the millionth time. '' he will be on his way. he ain't a little kid.'' I walk to the couch, sat on it.

Harry didn't come home. he has been out for 9 hours straight. his driver drove his car. I asked him where he was but he didn't reply to any. I know where he is, where he went.

''Niall, you think he is fine without killin' anyone?'' Louis asked me watching TV. '' I dunno mate. I have no idea.'' I let out a nervous smile. He shook his head. '' maybe we have to go search for him'' Louis said searching for his car keys. '' I mean it is raining very hard. Let's wait for a few minutes.'' Louis nods. I dialed his number. It went straight voice mail. I started to get nervous.

This world doesn't accept a person like him because he is too good for this world. If anything happens to him I would never forgive myself. I know how intimidating he can get. he is a very vulnerable person you'll ever find but he doesn't show it because people use that for their needs.

'' is he home yet?'' a feminine voice broke my thoughts. I sigh and clench my jaw. '' he is not, Katie'' Liam said with a warm smile. I raised my brows, Liam is a very welcoming person out of all of us. I am much nearer to Harry's intimidation and Louis is a sassy guy who lives with his fun and does what his heart says. I and Harry won't let people enter our world so easily like Liam and Louis. we are afraid, unlike Liam and Louis. Harry and Katie have been together for a year and so. I doubt this woman with everything. My guts never lie. In my entire 26 years, my guts never lied. I said this to Harry when she became a part of our group.

''Harry, I don't trust her'' I say out of blue. we sat in our office, He introduced her two days ago. I don't have any good intentions. one of them is she gets very touchy. I hate it when girls are so touchy.

'' Why did you say that?'' he clenches his jaws. I gulp and looked down.

'' Harry, you know I understand how much you like her um but my guts say she isn't the person she is.'' he nods and looked around in frustration.

''Niall, you dunno how much this woman means to me. she saved my life-''

'' That doesn't mean you have to love her and tell her everything'' I cut him off. He sighs. ''Ni, I respect your opinion but I love her,'' he says maintaining his calmness.

I closed my eyes I lost in the beauty of a woman I loved for 4 years. when I was 20 I fell in love with a girl who is shy and sweet. she knows everything about me. we thought to start up a family and start a new chapter after a while. I met her at a party when I first saw her I desperately was in love with her. then one day I met her and expressed my feelings and glad that we are on the same page. I told her my darkest secret but she didn't think twice she said she will love me no matter what. in no time she became a part of our group. lads loved her how cool she was. after 4 years we came to know that she was pregnant with my baby. I was in cloud nine. we thought to get married after the little bean was born but that night it changed everything. my life turned upside down. I thought she will get through is but she failed and she died. no instincts warned me. I fell apart I grieve over the fact nothing is left. she taught me what is love. she taught me how to be proud of yourself with what you had. I love her. I'm in love with her and I will never forget her. I still remember her last words. ''look in yourself, you'll find no peace in others but in yourself'' her words never left me. she lives in my memories. her part is still within me.