Graduated Time [ 00.00 ] - StevexTony AU

𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝟰𝟬 - 𝗦𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗱𝗮𝘆 ⍟

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"Hey miss Potts, Rhodey... this helmet is busted so I don't know if either of you will see this or ever find me. Don't post it on social media, it's gonna be a real tear-jerker. There's not much oxygen left, the food has ran out... I won't make it much longer.

Don't grieve my death— actually, grieve for a while and then let me go. Maybe actually don't let me go. Luckily, I've got the Blue Meanie with me.. I would've gone mad if I was alone.

Strange and Peter... oh god... I should rest. Oxygen'll run out tomorrow. Know— know that I will be dreaming of you when it's my time. It's always you."

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23 days. 23 and I still can't get it out of my head. I still see it. The failure. My friends turning into dust. Disappearing. Forever. I see Thanos, disappearing after killing Vision and taking the mind stone. I see it all. It hasn't been long, but I see it clear as day. And I see it as clear as I did the day it happened.

It's been hard trying to fall asleep every night. Even harder once you do, hoping for escape, you see the exact same events. And I don't know who else is gone... I'm not sure I want to know.

I was in the compound, I decided to shave my depression beard thing. In some way leaving those days behind me as well, I couldn't help but think of the watch. I stuffed it into an old suit of mine. I wasn't ready to see if Tony had turned to dust as well, I couldn't bare it. Couldn't live with myself if he had to go.

I thought about it every second of every awake moment. Is Tony alive? And is the kid still alive? I hoped so. The only way for me to find out, truly, was if I looked at the watch. I would've known what happened to Tony. What happened to the kid could've been a mystery forever.

The drawer where the watch was hidden in was in my vicinity, but I hadn't the courage to approach it and open it to even glimpse at the devil spawn at this point. The last time I looked at it, it was cracked and rusted ever so slightly. It always worried me. I thought it would mean the love we had for each other began fading and... well... rusting. Though my love for Tony never withered... maybe it should've.

It didn't make it better when he called me that night... my heart stopped beating once I heard the phone ringing and buzzing. I didn't believe my eyes. And I spoke. He tried to speak to me, but I couldn't get anything coherent from him. Doesn't matter anymore, I thought he didn't want to see me anyway.

I was just about done shaving when the bathroom I was in began rattling and shaking, I grabbed ahold of the little mirror beside the bigger one to stop it shaking. But it was the whole bathroom shaking, not just the mirror. It had to be Captain Marvel, she was the one going out to search for signs of our former teammates. "Our" being: me, Natasha, Rhodes, Pepper, some of Thor's new friends, Thor himself and Bruce.