Hate Me (Sangwoo And Yoonbum Ambw)

Chapter Eight

Carla's Pov
"Don't you think this dress is exposing... Too much skin." I trailed off flicking my eyes over to Sangwoo who has me sitting on the toilet seat while he was styling his hair.

I never in my life with my style have ever worn a dress that exposed so much of my thighs and my breast.

I felt like they were gonna pop out of the lacy bra Sangwoo put me in as well as the matching panties as well.

And when I looked away from studying my body that was shocking you could barely see the bruises on my body, the color of my dress was matching with Sangwoo's suit.

"You look fine, you look better than you usually do." He commented he then reached his hand out towards me and I almost winced and jerked away but out of reflex but he was just tucking my short hair behind my ears.

"Relax I won't be hurting you tonight, or using you for pleasure." He muttered towards me, his fingers then moving to trace at my cheek slowly.

"Here." I stared up at Sangwoo when he grabbed this really dark red lipstick, he cupped my chin before he started applying it onto my sore lips.

"Go like this." He mumbled rubbing his lips together, I copied his actions seeing him grin.

"Jieun has been trying to get in my pants for months now, so tonight she might get what she wants, you and Bum behave, I know you two have something going on when I'm not looking."

I let my eyes linger to the floor looking at the pair of simple red heels Sangwoo wanted me to wear. I didn't like this one bit but it would be another night I enjoyed being in freedom and that's what I needed.

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Yet another failed escape happened with me and Yoonbum we were so freaking and I almost attacked that poor guy all because of a stupid recording set. I shifted around in my heels tucking my hair behind my ears listening when Yoonbum muttered to me.

"I don't like when you wear makeup... You don't look like yourself.. I mean you are pretty no matter what but you are my beautiful without it." I felt my cheeks grow in warmth and I licked at my lipstick covered lips, holding my hands behind my back.

"Sangwoo put the makeup on me," I muttered loosely bringing the black jacket over me more hating how exposed I felt I looked around at all the people listening to Sangwoo and Jieun sing. I then looked back over at Yoonbum when he grabbed my hand quickly.

"Please, Carla... I see you looking at me differently every since what Sangwoo told you... Please don't look at me with disgust... My mind is such a mess I know it's wrong but I just want Sangwoo to love me..." I stared at Yoonbum even more before I had to look away.

"It's none of my business what you two do Yoonbum... You are free to do whatever you feel helps you not go crazy." I was then started when he was kissing me quite quickly and my normal reaction is to kiss back so that's what I did feeling his hands cupping my cheeks deeply.

We both broke for air after a small minute and Yoonbum now had lipstick on his lips. "I know I love you... It's a normal love  I have for you. I know that." He trembled out while I stared at him startled.

"I... I love you too Yoonbum." I whispered seeing his eyes grow soft. "I know what you mean about trying to make Sangwoo love you, cause you think it will make him stop hurting you deeply, I should be hating his guts but."

I paused looking up when I heard the loud applause and cheering from the crowd seeing Sangwoo was wiping Jieun's tears away, while she looked embarrassed her cheeks flushed a soft red.

"You see how everyone loves him without seeing the true horror he can infect on someone, everyone admires him and thinks he is so cool, he hurts me... And rapes me but sometimes I push myself onto him just to feel something."

I wiped fast at my cheek now noticing my voice was trembling. "I know I should be cursing his name but deep down... When I look in his eyes I know he was abused Yoonbum... I don't know where it comes from but when he accidental calls you mom, or when he makes me cuddle him he says it... I know he was abused I feel it."

I looked back at Yoonbum seeing he was studying me and placed his hand on my arm giving it a squeeze.

"He may do terrible things but no one should be abused..."

Carla's Outfit