Hate Me (Sangwoo And Yoonbum Ambw)

Chapter Twelve

Carla's Pov
All the times my big mouth had gotten me in trouble, all the times I could run my mouth. But then again that was the old me.. The old me was this girl who was basically everything I was nice, I was kind and had a very sarcastic humor.

I think that's why me and Sangwoo connected so easily as friends, but after all this fucked up shit, I was quiet I was staring a little uneasy holding myself while Yoonbum held me we were alone for a while after they arrested Sangwoo.

I felt kinda sick to my stomach like I was gonna puke but I needed to calm my nerves and everything didn't wanna give myself another miscarriage. I felt Yoonbum's hand rubbing at my back but I watched confused when two officers entered the house again.

They've been all over the house all morning "Come on you two." One came over to me helping me up while Yoonbum had a small little freak out and resisted quite a lot.

I felt a little too weak to even attempt to fight back but I slipped on pair of my shoes wincing a little the officer looked down at me slightly worried.

"Miss are you alright, you are walking funny is something wrong with your ankle?" I nibbled at my lip deeply and sighed moving around the best I could looking at it. The bandages were taunting me in a way. Reminded me back when Yoonbum, I don't know how he did anything.

"I fell down the stairs... Guess I'm too clumsy."

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Alright breath in and breath out I can do this. I told myself in my mind. I sat in the uncomfortable chair closely keeping my eyes on Seungbae, refusing to look at Yoonbum and Sangwoo in the eyes.

"Carla, you've been missing for a while now, I get calls from your mom on a daily all the way out from America." I tensed up gulping but I looked up a little through the strands of my hair.

"I... I'm not missing I just haven't had time for classes. " I whispered making my gaze look down at the floor rubbing my shoes on the floor uneasy.

"Is that so? You claim you are close with these two and that's why you are staying there, and your ankle what happened there?" I ignored the deep flashbacks in my head remembering the way the hard metal slammed down on my ankle, I held back a whimper fast. The crazed gaze and the laughter.

"I fell down the stairs." I quickly said keeping my head dropped down.

"She's been clumsy lately... She doesn't like talking to people." Sangwoo spoke out for me. Why couldn't I just say it! Oh that's right... I didn't wanna leave Bum.. I loved him.

I was glad the questions weren't on me anymore but I listened when Seungbae started asking Yoonbum questions. I shifted a bit letting my mind drift.

"Me and Bum are dating, Carla is just a really close friend that has been staying with us you know, we get judged all the time." I looked up a bit tucking my hair away. Seungbae frowned and picked a box from his back pocket.

"Oh really? Carla what's this? One of the officers found it, it's usually taken when someone has had a miscarriage." I flinched a little bit controlled my breathing and everything holding my hands together in my lap twiddling my thumbs. That's the medicine Sangwoo gave me after it all happened with the miscarriage.

"It was just a one night stand gone wrong sir.. I really don't wanna talk about the miscarriage." I whispered children and pregnancy was such a sensitive topic for me.

I was told that I wasn't ever gonna be able to have kids but here I was pregnant not just once but twice. I kept quiet some more for a while it was just a huge circle of Sangwoo telling lies left and right. And the officers believing that Sangwoo and Yoonbum were gay.

Back and forth me and Yoonbum were driven from the station after the questionnaire. By the time it felt like everything was over I was sitting in the  back seat of Sangwoo's car the charges were dropped for now  while he was rubbing at his bruised cheeks.

I know he was boiling inside. He was hiding it and that's what made him scary how he hid his rage and kept calm. I got out last looking around the street remember before I was injured so it was easier to run away not this time.

I trailed behind the two a little jolting back landing a little in shock I looked around fast.

"Sangwoo do you two have to do that now? Right here outside where anyone could see." I squeaked out fast looking away. I kept my arms firmly so I didn't have to look at all hearing Sangwoo grunt out.

"Its his punishment.. Almost getting me caught with his stupidity gosh." I shut my eyes tightly.

"Sangwoo can we go inside!"

"I am inside."

I felt a little dizzy and I was hoping I was gonna pass out "Sangwoo I need to go inside I feel dizzy, incase you want another miscarriage." Sangwoo seemed to stop for a moment at that when I dropped my arm he sighed nodding gesturing for me to go inside.

"Fine... Don't try anything." He warned at me. I walked past the two pressing on the code fast.

"I wanna protect this baby this time." I muttered slipping inside. I jumped back when the two fell inside I shut the door heading to the bathroom needing another bath after today. Felt like such a fever dream it was unreal.

I stripped myself down shutting the door behind me I stared at myself in the mirror for a moment my hand tracing the healed up stab wound in my stomach.

I looked at all the fading bruises in pure awe for a moment. Have I really gone through all this? In such a short amount of months. gone

I turned away from my appearance to run the bathroom water after a while I slipped inside relaxing a bit the hot steam from the water rising everywhere.

I didn't look up after a while when the bathroom door opened. Sangwoo came inside grumbling while he started placing bandages on his bruises.

"Where's Bum?" I muttered watching Sangwoo sit on the edge of the tub sighing out.

"Passed out sleep, listen I know it wasn't you talking to Seungbae right?" I shook my head a couple times.

"I didn't even know Yoonbum was talking to him Sangwoo." I muttered I felt his hand was stroking at my hair making me glance at him in confusion.

"I'm sorry I'm not good with my words and that I um.. Causes a miscarriage but I promise this time I'll take care of you  both right." He muttered staring at me more. I gazed at him fully.

And there I saw it that hidden sadness in his eyes from his past self. I couldn't find any words so I held his hand slowly squeezing at it. 

"I know you don't wanna be like this, something happened to you when you were younger didn't it?"

"You have no idea how much I wish I wasn't like this. "