Chapter 13:
Liam’s POV
The last thing I saw was Niall looking at me with a confused look, the last thing I heard was the crowd cheering us on after the amazing performance. I knew exactly what it was. I was passing out because of the loss of blood. God I’m so stupid how I could have given in so easily. I knew we had a performance and now who knows where the hell I am. Dead or in a hospital it doesn’t matter I let the mates down. And because of that one girl, sitting in the corner of the restaurant, starring at me from under her hooded jacket hoping I’d crack, and I did. She isn’t worth it anymore.
I lose my train of thought due to some crying, I know it all too well. It’s Ni. Another person I’ve hurt due to my foolish decisions. I hear him slowly whisper to me.
‘Li, I should have said something at your house or in the car maybe we would have avoided this. I know you’re hurt but I never thought you’d ever consider this as your only option. You could’ve talked to me. I’m always here for you Liam. And I haven’t been completely honest with you. I know this is hard to picture since I have no marks on my wrist but…’
I shoot my eyes open, almost instantly. Niall….cuts? How? I know he’s quiet and shy and lonely but I would have never expected him to go that far. He’s never told me this before. I see him smile, he gets up and comes to hug me. Looking around the hospital room I see we are the only 2 people there. He’s trusting me like he always does. I know he would never talk to anyone about this other than me.
‘Why didn’t you ever tell me?’ I say managing to get sit up. I look at my arm and see it wrapped in medical cloth.
‘I’m ashamed Li. Not even my parents know. It wasn’t that hard to hide. I cut my stomach not my wrists.’ He slowly lifts his shirt up and I see 5 different marks, small in length but I bet they are deep.
‘So does anyone other than you know? How did we even get here? How long has it been?’ I say slowly losing patience
‘It’s only been a couple of hours and only I rode in the ambulance with you because your mom left with mine to calm her down. You lost blood but by now you should be fine and well it looks like you are. I’m not going to tell anyone so don’t worry. We’ll just say you fainted because of not eating. But this is our secret. Both mine and yours. And you have to promise me something…’
‘Ni, don’t ask me to not cut because I’m not sure if I can-‘
‘NO, LIAM LISTEN TO ME! YOU WILL NOT CUT ANYMORE AND NEITHER WILL I…’ he screams. And I manage to nod. I’ve never seen him this worried. ‘Now let’s go, the doctor said you were free to go when you woke up so they didn’t even bother changing you. They just wrapped your arm.’
I get up and see that Louis has already signed the release papers. He is 18 so I guess it’s legal. We walk out to the parking lot where the boys are waiting for us in Louis’ civic. The car ride is long, even though the hospital is only a few miles away from my house. No one askes me anything because Niall already explained the non-eating thing so its like nothing happened.
The gig was cancelled but people liked the song so much it brought more costumers in, we got hired to play every Wednesday, Friday and Saturday for as long as we can keep it up. I’m glad my stupidity didn’t ruin it for the band.
The next few weeks go by quickly, us going to Nando’s every other day makes Niall real happy! He can be such an idiot sometimes but he’s our idiot. Harry comes up with the name One Direction for the band and we all agree. We got a drummer, a keyboard player and another guitarist named Josh. Niall wasn’t too happy but it gave him more time to sing, and we all liked that because we voted Niall best voice. I have no idea what it is but it’s something special. He’s been song writing like crazy mostly about love because of Melody seems like they’re going strong and well I’m happy for him.
