Chapter 24
Niall’s POV
The rest of the day I found myself being pulled here and there by Louis, demanding me to stay with him until we had to go to bed. I love the guy to death but this is getting a bit out of hand, I’ve been trying to text Mariel thanks to Liam finding me her number but with Louis depressed and Liam and Zayn trying to get Harry out of his and Lou’s room, I’m not gonna get the chance until everyone is asleep. You’d think Lou would go to Zayn for advice but he just clings on to me, he doesn’t even care if we don’t talk, he just wants me there with him. Don’t get me wrong the company is nice but isn’t Lou the one who keeps telling me to not give up and move on from the past. He’s not taking his own advice and until Harry and him don’t sit down and talk this out in the right way, he’s not letting go.
‘Look, Lou please go talk to Harry and if you don’t want to ever see him again than that’s fine too, but you have to move on and not bring yourself down over this.’ I say after he finally told me what was truly wrong.
‘How can you say that Ni? He’s the first person I’ve ever actually been in love with that’s not a girl, and I keep giving him all these chances to tell me he feels the same way but…’
‘What if he doesn’t feel the same way? Have you ever thought about that? I know this seems harsh coming from someone who wouldn’t kill a fly, but you have to realize that not everyone you love is going to love you back. Life isn’t some fairytale and I learned that the hard way. You have to give yourself the chance to find someone who truly loves you and stop giving chances to those who might not. Im not saying you should go back to that Emerson dude cause he seems like trouble and honestly I just don’t think he’s your type. Love will come on its own, just focus on you for now.’
‘Niall I understand. And I’m actually liking this philosopher side of you, but I see Harry on a daily bases, now more than ever with this band thing actually working out for us. I need a definite answer from him, either a yes or a no. Not a maybe, or a no but in 2 days time he’s in bed with me.’
‘Whoa wait, you guys have been in bed together?’
‘Not in that sense Ni, he just comes and sleeps in the same bed with me being all cuddly and I cant stand it. Id love to be with him but im not some toy he can play around with until he it breaks.’
‘Well than ask him all this you’re asking me, tell him you want a definite answer, and if he doesn’t give it to you than just ignore him for the rest of the summer, let him know that what you feel is coming from the heart and then maybe he’ll be honest with you. Don’t scream at each other like you did this morning because it’ll only make things worse. Stop pitying yourself and go and tell that curly haired tosser how you truly feel!’
We’d been walking to the back of the train all this time and we are both just looking out watching the sun about to position itself for the first stages of sundown, we had about an hour and half left until it got dark.
‘Thanks Niall, I know you suck at advice but let’s face it, you’re right.’
He gives me a hug and then makes his way to the door that leads back into the last train cart.
‘Wish me luck’ he says and I do.
Once he’s back inside I stand close to the railing, admiring the view, watching as the planks of metal rapidly come out from under the train only to disappear from my view after a few seconds as the train moves onward. It’s beautiful, hearing nothing but the wind and the clanks of metal beating against each other beneath my feet. I quickly take out my phone and take this moment to text Mariel, maybe if she’s still onboard she can meet me here for sundown. I took it upon myself to bring the Ipad with me everywhere I go just in case I see her.
