Heart Rate Pt. 2 ( ✅ #9 EDITING) (3/2020 - 9/11/20)

🌺 (13) You and only you!

Previously:

(March 11, 2019

Can's POV

So, what do you want to talk to me about?"

"About what amca (uncle) Nihat said?"

"What exactly? He said a lot of things."

"About ..." And I saw he rested his body on the counter. "Us having kids," and he looked at me.

"Ok. But wait, let me take the shampoo off." he smiled and kept looking at the floor. I know what he is going to say, and I seriously don't want this conversation to happen. But, I know we have to. We have to talk. I sighed as I finished washing my hair. I took a deep breath to get some courage, "Ok, you were saying?"

"Sanem, we can't."

"Why?" I yelled from the shower and soaping my body.

"You know why? I don't want the baby to be born with a heart issue. Look at me, Baba, even Bulut." I was able to see the sadness through the glass door. "Bulut was fine after the surgery, but Baba (dad) as soon as he feels he is about to have an attack and needs to lay down and bring his legs up to prevent the attack; and now me." he sights. "I'm on the verge of dying, I'm on the verge of ..." he looked at the floor and back at me and wiped his tears. "I'm on the verge of losing you." he wiped more tears. "So, no Sanem. I don't want any kids. We can adopt, but I don't want any biological kids." He looked back at the floor, bit his lower lip and looked at me. "I'm sorry." he whispered and walked out of the bathroom.

Sanem's POV

I know Can is right, I wiped my tears. It hurts me to admit it, but I know he is right. Even if I do end up getting pregnant, it doesn't mean we will have a baby with a heart condition. But, I understand his fear. I wiped more tears and finished showering. I got out and put on my pajamas and walked out seeing Can already in bed sleeping on his side.

I lay facing him, and started to softly trace his hair, and softly said, "I understand you, I am afraid as well." And he opened his eyes, "But, I need you to stop saying your going to lose me; because your not. I told you, I'm not going to let you die." I assured him as I wiped my tears. "And once you are good, we can definitely look into adopting."

"Yes, we can" we both gave a soft smile, he leaned forward and gave me a soft kiss on the lips. " I love you a lot."

"Me too." I whispered as I cuddled in his arms and went to sleep.

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September 16, 2019 (6 month later)

Sanem's POV

This can't be true, I passed my hands over my head. "No, no. I Don't accept it, I don't believe it." I looked at him, and back at the computer and kept re reading the test results. "You're going to repeat the test. I need you to repeat the test."

"Sanem what's going on?" He softly asked. But I ignored him and just kept looking at the computer. So, he got up from his seat and squatted in front of me. "Baby, look at me." he gently moved my head and I took my eyes from the computer and looked at him, with blurry vision as I felt my tears build up. He softly placed his fingers over them, and made my tears fall.

"You have done everything; everything I have told you. Everything, and it's not working." I cried. "Nothing Can, nothing is working. I stood up and rested my hands over the patient chair. Then I abruptly lifted myself up, "I need an ultrasound machine now!" I anxiously said, and Can stood in front of me.