[Completed] Danganronpa V1: Trigger Happy Havoc Rewrite

~*Chapter 12: Despair over Hope*~

~=thinking

"=talking

()=author's note

P.O.V=Point of View (it'll be only Toko's from now on cause everyone else y'know died)

SHSL=Super High School Level

Blackend=Killer/Culprit 

Note: There will be some dark thoughts in this such as not caring as to be being alive anymore and falling into despair. Secondly, dead bodies will be mentioned in certain parts of this. Thirdly, curse words will be mentioned in certain parts as well. Foruthly, a  drug will be used as a nickname in this chapter, at one point. Fifthly, someone will vomit in this chapter, since I know some people have a fear of vomit. Again, if any of this triggers you or scares you, I do not recommend you to read this chapter. Thank you and have a good day <3

Toko P.O.V:

I laid down on my bed, hugging my pillow close to my chest, and staring deep off into space. The truth was that I had been doing that a lot lately. Well, to be precise ever since Ishamaru's death. I still couldn't get the image of Ishamaru's corpse falling off the truck, covered in their own blood, out of my mind. Even, thinking about it, made me feel like I was about to vomit. 

~Ugh! Ishamaru why did you have to kill Chihiro!?! I know it's not your fault, but if your instincts hadn't kicked in automatically, then you would still be alive. You and I would probably be at the library reading or at the cafeteria making tea together, but instead, I'm lying here, broken over your death.

It wasn't very surprising to me that Ishamaru's execution affected me the most, since I was the closest to him at the time of his death. We had only been friends for a day, but it felt like we had been friends my whole life. Nonetheless, I completely stopped eating, only drinking water, stopped talking to my other classmates, and just accepted the fact of being stuck in here. I knew I should be more hopeful, as that is what Ishamaru would have wanted me to be right now, but all I could feel was despair. Poking, where the "hole" was, I sighed and, decided to go get some tea, as that may make me feel better. However, even thinking about the word tea, made me feel like I'm about to burst into tears, as that's when me and Ishamaru's friendship blossomed. Changing, into an identical outfit of the one I was wearing a few seconds ago, I fasted my messy hair into my two braids, and unlocked my dorm room. Once, I stepped outside, I was surprised that no one was outside it, as everyone always came to my dorm every day to check how I was doing. Making, my way towards the cafeteria, I noticed that everyone was there, eating breakfast and chatting with each other. Walking, through the doors, everyone's eyes came to me which freaked me out a little. Finally, Aoi got up from where she and Sakura were sharing donuts together and came over to me, hugging me tightly.

"Hey? How are you doing? I know Ishamaru's death hit you hard, but like he said you need to have hope during these dark times." Aoi remarked.

I snorted at this, as Aoi was one of the people to help come to the conclusion that Kiyotaka Ishamaru was the culprit. Sure, I knew she had no ill intentions, but I couldn't help hating everyone in this room, with a burning passion. Pushing, her away, I walked past her and to the kitchen where I would make tea.

"Hey Toko! What you did to Aoi was very rude! All she wanted to do was make you feel better. I suggest that you go find her and apologize." Makoto implied, watching me as I brewed some tea.

"Why should I!?! She was clearly asking about a sensitive topic to me, knowing how well that topic hurts me. If, anything, she should apologize to me." I retorted.

"Look, Toko.....I know your still hurt from finding out Ishamaru was the murderer....and that we helped prove that he was the killer....but don't you remember what Monokuma said? If we don't vote right, then we'll all be punished, except the blackened, of course." Makoto exclaimed.