Psycho

Chapter 4

The district of Flagstaff schools has been out for about 5 days now. We got a giant winter storm and even after the snow melted the temperatures dropped severely. During this extra time we have been off I have mainly sat on my computer watching the big cameras from Rylie's house. I can surely conclude that Rylie is not a two faced person. Which is a major relief.

I decided to ask her to go ice skating with my about 2 days ago before the temperatures dropped to the negatives. It was a prodigious experience. we didn't do much talking. We both had to concentrate a lot to actually stay up on our ice skates. She asked to hold my hand. I'm sure it was help for balance or that "If I go down your going down with me" type if thing. I really enjoyed holding her hand. They were really warn and soft. We decided that we weren't good at ice skating and should probably quit before we break a bone. As soon as we returned our skates it started to snow. We started to walk over to my car. We were waiting to cross the road that seemed to take forever to clear. I glanced over at her and looked at how amazing she looked. There was snowflakes in her hair, and a sparkle in her eye. Not being able to take my eyes off of her, she noticed and looked back at me. A few moments of silence occurred then I said "You are the most beautiful girl I know." Rylie leaned in and kissed me. It lasted, it lasted longer than any other kiss I have ever had. The world sort of disappeared during that time. My world was perfect at that point. I was finally flying high. Then the world crumbled on top of me. I backed up and smiled, a lot. But Rylie stood there with the look that just strait up said "what have I just done?!" My smile faded away. She told me we need to go.
When we arrived at her house she got out and said "I can't talk to you anymore, at least not for a while."
My world is officially in pieces. I've been clean for the last 2 months but I just can't continue anymore. I had to bring the pills back out.