Lost without you

Chapter 10~ Before I saw you

~~~~(Pooki's POV)~~~~

Waking up from a strange dream that involved Jerry. I quickly roll over to the other side of my bed so I can check on my phone. Seeing on the calendar the fact that it's finally the weekend just smiling at the thought of it. Oh, wait that's right Jerry!!, He's flying over to spend time here with me in Texas. After playing Bed Wars with Jerry 2 weeks ago and before a couple of months back had such an impact on me and still does. Way before the video, the day of the video, and after I've had a couple of dreams that involved Jerry and me being a couple. 

At first, I didn't want to think that way of him. But then again being reminded by the thought of having Jerry as a lover wouldn't be an unpleasant idea either. Having feelings for Jerry like this again hurts since I don't know if he feels the same. However, this time with these sparks of feelings fluttering through me, I'm not letting the chance to meet him get the better of me. Oh, wait since we are meeting for the first time face to face, might be better to confess then online. Well if I want this to work or at least prepare myself for whatever outcome comes my way, I must compose myself before his flight lands.

~~~~At the airport~~~~

~~~~(Jerry's POV)~~~~

Couldn't keep my mind off of all the possibilities that can happen while hanging out with Pooki for the first time ever. Maybe I'm just overthinking it but I do want to impress him as much as I can, I mean sure we are best friends but we have never seen each other face to face. However, maybe this is the perfect timing to tell him how I feel about him. I might just be moving too soon but I've felt this way since the day we met sure at first it was all denial. 

All at once, it hit me like a harsh slap to the face leaving a bruise, one of knowledge to the feelings I had that flourished for him. Perhaps, I can ask Max or Ross for help on this, after all, we are very close best friends so why not ask them about this. Pulling out my phone, I glance around to find a place to sit while I wait for my plane. Finally finding an empty seat by a set of doors, I build up enough courage to ask them. I put on my earphones and wait as I hear the phone ring.

"Heyyyyy Max and Ross," I say, glad that they picked up on the first try.

"HEYOOOO," They both say in excitement, glad to see they are worry-free

"So, I have a question to ask you guys, I've been hesitant to ask advice on this sort of stuff but I seriously need help," I say my voice sounding shaky with a crack at the end of my words.

"Oh sure man, what's the question?" Max sounds confused but eager to help. I take in a quick breath my heart racing. Why am I so nervous it's just Max and Ross.

"Look, I'm just going to come out and say it. I have strong feelings for Pooki and I seriously don't know how to tell him or even ask him out," I say, sounding sad. Gosh, I'm really bad at this confession stuff sure I've asked someone before but somehow this feeling and time is different.

"Awww,man is this why you're sad?" Ross asks, sounding concerned but supportive.

 "Man look there is nothing to worry about it just sit down and share how you feel" Max cuts in sounding confident about his answer.

"Hmm look your advice sounds soundproof but how do I know for sure it'll work?" I say pondering if the advice given is good but then again how can I doubt their advice when I'm not even sure. 

"Look man trust me it works, that's how I and Ross are currently handling our feelings for each other," Max says, he states something else but it was ushered under his breath.

"Wait wait you're with ROSS?!?" I say incredibly loud, I quickly glance up gladly to see no one is too close to hear my overly noisy statement. Going back to our discussion, I hear them both laughing by my astonished tone to my voice. I hear Ross attempt to clear his throat to explain.

"Actually, no we aren't officially together," Ross says, I hear a bit of sadness to his voice.

"Look it's okay Ross" I hear Max say, also sounding sad with a hint of guilt behind it as well. I can't see their faces but I can imagine he's hugging Ross right now comforting him. 

"Ross we will discuss this more when we can but you know we are too busy to fully talk about this" Max says, now I hear what seems like Ross quietly sobbing. 

"Shhhh shhh it's okay my love, I'm here everything will be okay," Max says in a soothing voice trying to calm down Ross. After a few minutes, I hear some faint voices then what sounds like them kissing, how adorable.

"Okay, I don't like this silence so stop being cute over there," I say trying to sound sassy but genuine because they both truly need someone just like I need that someone to so I hope Pooki feels the same.

"So sorry Jerry, Max is just being way too cute over here". Ross says giggling then playfully hitting Max on the shoulder.

"It's not my fault you that you are being cute first though," Max says to Ross, kissing Ross softly. He meant to say it as a whisper so I wouldn't hear but I heard every word and not going to lie, but I'm kinda jealous how cute they are together. Sure they aren't official now but even before expressing or knowing how they felt for each other, they were just so cute over calls.

"Hey, I hear all of that," I say playfully acting mad, letting out a fake growl. Everything goes quiet till Max breaks the silence by bursting into a laughing fit followed by Ross giggling. Man can't wait till we all see each other in real life and can actually hang out with each other. Because I know once we do there will be no stopping the fun and happiness that will fill our hearts.

"Alright before you guys end up just making out, I'm going to head out," I say laughing still thinking about them being cute.

"Aw, okay well tell us when you arrive in Texas," Ross replies sounding happy.

"Hey, remember Jerry to be brave don't hold back how you feel about him, don't think twice just act it'll be more easier that way," Max says

"Yeah thanks, guys for all your help and for all the laughs" Even if I'm still nervous to act on this plan. I'm more than confident it will work and I will finally have this weight off my chest once and for all.

"Bye Jerry love ya" Max and Ross both chime in before ending the call, once again I'm alone with my thoughts. After a while, I hear the intercom announce my flight for departure. Standing up and walking over to my apartment at the check-in counter, I remind myself to be brave for him after all this is for him.