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So Hopeless

Chapter Three: So Hopeless

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"Oh you have got to be kidding me..." Bakugou whispers to himself as more tears begin to make their way down his cheeks.

Bakugou loathed the bad days, it was around midnight and Bakugou was sitting in his bathroom on the floor.

It had all started after he got out of his fifth class of the day. Bakugou was minding his own damn business until he heard people talking about him loudly in the hallway. This wasn't an unusual thing, many people talked shit about Bakugou.

Many people talked shit about Bakugou, it was just what people did because of his attitude towards them. Bakugou knew he came off rude but that would never stop their hurtful words from not hurting.

Bakugou didn't pick a fight with them, instead he went straight to his dorm to take a cold shower. That cold shower turned into him crying on his bathroom floor for about ten hours. Bakugou tried not to let the words get to him, he really did try. It was no use though, no matter how hard he tried to forget it wasn't going to happen.

So Bakugou cries, he tries to push out the sadness that rested deep inside his chest yet it couldn't stop or go away. His hands shake as he struggles to stop the flowing tears. He felt so numb at that moment, so hopeless, he felt worthless.

Bakugou knew he looked weak sitting on the floor crying his eyes out. He couldn't help this though, he was a little okay with it since no one was around to see him in such a vulnerable state.

That was until a knock was heard from the food of his dorm, a loud yet hesitant knock. Bakugou jumps from the sudden noise and tries to keep himself quiet in hopes that the person will leave.

"Kaachan?" Bakugou freezes from the sudden voice that he knew. There was no way that Bakugou was going to let Midoriya see him like this.

Bakugou and Midoriya were childhood friends, they did almost everything together. They were inseparable as children. This stopped once Bakugou got his quirk, he stopped hanging around Midoriya.

Instead Bakugou made new friends in hopes to fill a space in his heart that was left open, different friends, rude friends. Bakugou's new friends bullied others and this caused Bakugou to do the same.

Bakugou began to bully Midoriya, Bakugou hated himself for what he had caused Midoriya to go through.

So once they got to high school he stopped everything, he stopped talking to everyone and focused on himself. Of course Bakugou still talked to people but he stopped having friends and stopped feeling happy.

He didn't really know why he did this to himself. He believed that maybe it was so he could feel just a little bit of what Midoriya had to go through. Bakugou despised himself for what he had done, he wished he never did what he did to Midoriya.

"I know you can hear me Kaachan," Midoriya says before letting out a sigh from behind Bakugou's dorm room door.

"Just go away you nerd!" Bakugou shouts out while wiping his eyes. He was pissed over Midoriya knocking on his door and for being called that awful nickname.

Midoriya's eyes widened from hearing Bakugou's voice, he sounded as if he had been crying. Midoriya has always watched Bakugou, made sure he wasn't struggling in class and making sure he wasn't getting into too many fights.

"I can't do that Kaachan," Midoriya says with a small voice, Bakugou glares down at the floor. He hated when Midoriya sounded as if he was walking on eggshells.

"Then what the fuck do you want?" Bakugou asks Midoriya, his throat hurt from talking. Crying for hours can do that to a voice but Bakugou tried not to think about it.

Midoryia was a little astonished to hear a different tone from Bakugou, normally it was angry.

Midoryia never knew why Bakugou bullied him and then left, well not left but completely stopped talking to him. Midoriya saw changes in Bakugou over the years, the way he closed off people and how he stopped having friends.

What Midoriya didn't understand was why Bakugou was going through these things. Midoryia missed the way how it used to be when they were both kids. He missed how they used to spend the night at each other's houses or the way that they used to just laugh and watch cartoons together.

Both Bakugou and Midoriya rarely ever talked to each other. Midoryia would occasionally have to talk to him due to training or when they were out on missions. It was strange because both boys were almost always together. They had the same classes and were put on many missions together.

"I just wanted to check on you, see if you are doing okay is all," Midoriya tries to explain to Bakugou without pissing off the blonde. Midoriya tried not to make it seem like Bakugou couldn't take care of himself. He knew that Bakugou has always struggled with feeling weak.

"Whatever, I'm fine. Now get the fuck out of here," Bakugou says with a sigh, his eyes were starting to grow heaver and heaver with each passing second. Midoriya found it odd that Bakugou was being so quiet, normally he was at least more vulgar.

"You know I'm always here if you need to talk about something," Midoriya says quietly, he really did want Bakugou to come to him if he ever needed to talk. Bakugou rolls his eyes at Midoriya's words.

"Get lost loser, it's late," Bakugou says to Midoriya. The green haired boy lets out a sigh before running his hand through his short hair.

"Just remember what I said Kaachan, night, sleep well," Midoriya says before walking away. Bakugou only grunts in reply. Bakugou hated that hearing Midoriya's voice helped him calm down just a little.