Lost Love {Sidnaaz}✅

Part: 5

Ishita and Neyonika were shocked to see how easily Shehnaaz controlled Sidharth's attacks. It was an impossible task for them, they felt like the magic had happened in front of their eyes. This magic was also seen by Cabir, he was standing on the doorstep in shock. Shehnaaz came in their life like an angel and soon she was going to change their life.

Then Cabir with the help of Neyonika and Ishita laid him down on the bed. Shehnaaz was also in a shock by her acts. She was standing still blankly and her eyes were fixed at Sidharth. She was feeling like her heart is connected to his heart, he was in pain, and her heart was aching badly. When all were busy in lying down Sidharth, she rushed out of the room with her dilemma.

"Where that girl went?" Cabir asked bemusedly as they all turned to talk to Shehnaaz. They all gave each other confused looks.

Neyonika's lips curved up into a slight smile and her eyes glinted with happiness. "Humhai voh ladhki mil gye, Ishita, jo humhre Sid ko thik kar sakti hai, ushe Nandita ki yado se bahar nikalne wali ladhki humhai milgye, Ishita." she said merrily, holding Ishita's hands while Ishita was still standing sadly and confused.

"But who was she?" Ishita asked in confusion from Neyonika, and then she told her, where she met Shehnaaz and how she took her here with her.

"Voh jo koe bhi thi, ushne toh jado hi kar diya, how easily she controlled Sidharth's attacks, she has come like a ray of hope in our life and especially our Sidharth's life." Cabir uttered, his eyes glinted with the happiness. They were relieved because, after so many years, they got a ray of hope that ray hope was Shehnaaz.

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"Nandita, " After sometime Sidharth woke up, shrieking. Then he recalled about today's incident that how that girl arms had given him immense peace. At that moment he had felt like his pain was going away by crying in her arms. He felt relief after long sixteen years and he didn't want her to go leaving him, he wanted her to take away his all pain because he got tired. Tired of living in pain and guilt of his mistake. The comfort and peace, he found in her arms, he felt like this was what he was craving for.

"If she is not my Nandita then why I felt so peaceful in her arms? Why her touch made me forget my all pain? Why that girl is making my mind and heart crazy if she is not my Nandita?" He wondered confusingly, holding his head. He was going crazy thinking about all this because after sixteen years, someone had given him peace and he was baffled.

"She is becoming my distraction, I have to find my Nandita. Nandita is not with me, I don't even want any peace without her . I just want Nandita, then eventually I will get peace of my life. One random girl can't distract me in achieving my goal of finding my Nandita." He muttered after getting up from the bed and thought that Shehnaaz was just his distraction. His words clearly showed how truly he loved Nandita, he didn't even want any peace without her.

On the other side, Shehnaaz was also losing her mind, wondering about today incident. She decided to share everything with Mukti because she thought, maybe she could help her in this.

She was waiting for Mukti, sitting in the coffee shop. "What is happening to me? Why I was feeling so much pain seeing him in pain? Why I want to take away his all pain? Why my heart is aching? Oh god, what is happening to me?" She was lost in her thoughts while playing with her fingers when Mukti stepped into the coffee shop.

"What happened to my doll ?" Mukti asked, holding her hands after sitting in front of her. Listening to her words, she came out of her thoughts and gazed at Mukti, having pain in her eyes.

"Mukti," she suddenly started crying like a baby, making Mukti shocked and confused. Mukti stood up and rushed toward her.

"What happened, Shehnaaz, why are you crying?" Mukti clasped her face and asked worriedly. Shehnaaz was just weeping, looking at her.

She herself didn't know why she was crying like this, but the reality was, she was crying because Sidharth's worst condition was breaking her heart badly and she was not understanding this. His pain had affected her a lot.

"Mukti-Mukti, mujhe kuch smajh nhi aa rha, I am not understanding anything that what is happening to me, I am feeling so much pain in my heart and I don't know why this is happening to me," She shuttered and hiccuped, looking at Mukti. She was looking at her in confusion, not understanding that why her friend was crying.

"Okay just calm down, first," Mukti pulled her into her arms and consoled her by rubbing her back. Shehnaaz cried even more, hugging her tightly. She wasn't understanding why the pain was not going away. She had no clue that now she would get relief only after seeing Sidharth in peace and her life was going to be changed utterly because she had fallen in love with the wrong person who had been in trauma since sixteen years after losing love of his life.

When Shehnaaz stopped crying, Mukti broke the hug and gave her glass of water which was kept on the table. Mukti was looking at her worriedly, last time she had seen her crying like this on the funeral of her mother and this was the second time, she was seeing her in this condition. That's why she was worried because she was assuming that there must be something big which broke down the strong girl like Shehnaaz.

"Shehnaaz, if you are comfortable, you can share with me your problem, maybe I could help you." Mukti said, holding her hand again after sitting on the chair, pulling it near to her chair. Shehnaaz stared at her, distressed.

"I called you here only to share the things with you because I know you are the only one who can help me out like always." Shehnaaz smiled slightly.

"I'm always there for you." Mukti smiled back.

Mukti and Shehnaaz shared a true bond of friendship, their friendship was strong and old.

Shehnaaz started telling everything to her that how she met Sidharth and how he behaved with her and then she also told her that what happened when she was going back to home last night.

"I don't understand Mukti, why I couldn't control myself and rushed back into the room, just to hug him. And why? Why my heart ached seeing him shattered?" she told about her confused feelings. Mukti was feeling like she was listening a story of any movie and she also came to know that why all this was happening with her.

"You are in love with him." As Mukti uttered,  she raised her brows in utter shock and disbelief.

"Shehnaaz, yes you are in love, that's why his pain is affecting you, you want to see him happy, your heart is crying seeing him in pain and now you will only get relief after seeing him happy." Whatever Mukti was saying, Shehnaaz was finding everything correct, but she was shocked to accept the fact that she was in love with him.

"If this is love then I have to control my feelings of love, because there is no future of my love, because he still crazily loves his childhood friend, I am nothing for him and will remain nothing for him, " Shehnaaz murmured sorrowfully looking at Mukti.

"But Shehnaaz, controlling the feeling of love is not in our hands. If you try to suppress this feeling, it will increase more with passing time. I suggest you to don't control your feelings, you should try to give a chance to your love" Mukti tried to make her understand and Shehnaaz was agreeing to her words, but in only two days, she came to know one thing that he would never accept her because he was in deep love with Nandita.

At night, Shehnaaz was changing her position again and again because she couldn't able to sleep. Whenever she tried to sleep after closing her eyes, she saw Sidharth's sorrowful eyes and it broke her heart, and she used to open her eyes instantly. Even his screams were echoing in her ears and wasn't letting her sleep.

"Ahaahaa," she shouted after sitting up on the bed holding her head. Then she decided to read novels, but reading novels also didn't help her out. Even on the pages of the book, she started imagining his distressed face. She threw the book on the floor in frustration and sat holding her head.

"Why it is so difficult to forget his pain? I really don't want to remember about him because I am falling for him and I know there is no future of me in this love. I need to stop my feeling here only before it gets too late." She thought and lay down, holding the pillow tightly near to her heart. She was not aware, from tomorrow, her life was going to be changed.