Lost Love {Sidnaaz}✅

Part: 16

Sana's P.O.V.

It's hurt a lot when someone you love unconditionally but in return every time that someone gives you only pain, and it hurts more when you can't even blame him completely for your pain. This was happening with me, my heart was breaking a bit by bit every day because I fell in love with the person who was not in a condition to see my love and pain. He was in a pain where he was just thinking about his first love.

"Last night whatever happened, it was not his fault, it was my fault. He was not in his senses but I was in my senses, I could have stopped him but I didn't, it was my fault." I was crying in agony, standing under the shower. I was blaming myself for everything and it was hurting a lot.
The water was removing his touch from my body but it could never remove his touch from my soul.

I couldn't even describe in words that I felt so incredible last night. I wanted to stop the time when he was making my each and every cell of the body alive and beautiful with his touch. I closed my eyes and got lost in thinking about last night. The way he was kissing and loving my body, it was pure bliss. Everything was so beautiful, so pure and full of love, I felt like he also loves me in the same way I love him. I didn't feel for a single second that he didn't have a feeling for me. I didn't know why I felt like this.

Writer P.O.V.

One side Sana was heartbroken and blaming herself and on the other side, Sidharth was losing his mind because he thought that one night would make everything fine and make him forget Shehnaaz, but nothing happened the way he had expected, it happened opposite. When he reached back home, he started remembering about the beautiful night which he had spent with Shehnaaz and this also made him remind that how much he felt good and what her touch was doing to him. She made his dead soul alive with her touch. After sixteen years, he felt alive. He was going crazy wondering why he was still thinking about her, and why he was forgetting Nandita. He was not ready to accept that he had fallen in love with Shehnaaz.

"How could you forget me, Sidu." He was lying on the floor and staring at the ceiling silently when he heard Nandita's voice. He immediately stood up and looked at the door from where her voice had come.

"You had promised me that you would come and save me," Nandita spoke in a serious tone, gazing at him.

"I am in pain, Sidu, you can't do this to me. You can't forget me like this." Listening to her words, tears started trickling down his eyes.

"No," He shook his head.

"You can't leave me in pain, Sidu." Nandita disappeared suddenly and he slumped down on the floor with a thud. He became hysterical and started crying mechanically covering his face with palm. He was feeling guilty for cheating Nandita by spending the night with Shehnaaz. He was thinking that he made Nandita upset by doing this. Shehnaaz was right that she would always remain his mistake.

"Why Shehnaaz came in my life? She has made everything more difficult for me." He shrieked in anger after removing his hands from his face. He got up and started breaking the things in his room.

"Ahaha..." He shouted loudly, picking up his guitar and hit it on the mirror. Mirror broke down into millions of pieces like his heart. He bent down and took a broken piece in his hands. He closed his eyes while clenching his fist. The broken piece of the mirror was hurting him and blood was oozing out of his palm, but his expression remained the same, it was like he was not feeling any pain.

"How can I cheat my Nandita?" He roared in anger and started hitting his other hand over the floor. Like he was punishing himself for cheating his Nandu.

That time only, Cabir walked in and ran toward him. He felt bad when he saw him hurting himself.

"Sidharth, please stop hurting yourself." He held his shoulders from behind and tried to stop him, but he tried to push him. Cabir held him tightly and he stopped hurting himself.