Royal Deception

chapter twenty nine

I focused my gaze entirely on my underwear for the fifth time that morning . Was it normal to have your period during pregnancy?

The cramps were normal , nothing exceptional and my blood flow seemed normal as usual : despite all this I knew I had to visit a doctor soon.

Flashing the toilet I walked out of the bathroom dragging my heavy feet. It had been two weeks now and 'foot swelling' had become my new bestfriend . How about that.

Although I was entirely tired I still had to take care of my baby . Call it a motherly instinct or a form of comfort from a mind scorching heartbreak.

"Hey mom" I greeted once I'd carefully flopped onto the broken couch.

"Hey beautiful" she smiled holding out her meatloaf. I swear I wanted to puke.

That again had been another problem lately . I puked at every food I saw excluding nutella and pickles or plain olives .

"Sweety are you sure nothing is wrong" she asked softly.

"I'm sure . And mom I'm going out sometime later" I fake smiled to get her approval her previous question had been enough to raise my blood sugar.

Before you conclude yes I had not yet told her.

"You never go out where do you want to go" she asked glaring at me

Think, freaking think of a reasonable excuse. I panicked and finally a lamp lit in my mind.

"Chloe asked me to buy some western clothes for her" I professionally fake smiled.

"Sure honey you can go" she replied leaving the room.

***** crossing the road I begged God to help me not get hit by a bus . The congestion in Seattle is a whole different topic. To add a pinch of salt to the traffic situation my feet just had to be extra sore particularly this day.

My sunhat was enough to keep me from dehydration as well as sunburn and the purple sundress I had on allowed air to freely pass refreshing me.

I walked to the nearest local clinic. Upon arrival I joined a queue of pregnant women which was extremely awkward considering how young I probably looked.

Looking at the women in the line made me want to burst into tears. Each of them had their husband either waiting with them rubbing their backs or sitting on the outdoor benches giving them charming smiles.

Reality harshly reminded how I'd never be similar to everyone out there. How the boy I'd sworn to give my life for less than a month ago had left me , left us.

"I think you need this" , a redhead beautiful woman with a heart shaped face who was standing infront of me said offering me a soft tissue.

I hadn't even noticed I was crying.

That bastard had ruined me . I swore to hate him. But my heart , my mind and my body begged to differ.

Sometimes I just hated how gullible I was.

I really did.

I had a private talk with the maternal doctor who looked more like a pervert than a medical person if you ask me.

He clarified to me how despite it was rare having your period during pregnancy it was very normal.
That gave me a sense of relief.

He or should I say Doctor Dietrich urged me to consume more iron and drink a lot of water. Why do women always have to work for everything, I mean face it, chores ,cooking, sewing, Particularly PREGNANCIES.

*****"I never saw what you bought" my mother said soon after dinner.

Shoot I'd forgotten about the lie.

"I couldnt find her sizes" I defended.

"You look tired" she skeptically said.

"The town was extra crowded today"

"But you never get tired"

"People change!" I snapped

"Are you okay"

"Do I not look okay"

"I'm not going to argue with you" she gasped

"Then dont!" I snapped leaving the room.

"You will not speak to me like that" my mother softly protested following me

"What's wrong with you tell me" she gently asked still I couldnt tell her now so i said something worse.

"Just leave me alone"

And she did with a weary face.

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"Then she freaking called me yesterday and I almost killed her because she cockblocked Gerald" explained Chloe on the call.

"How is Gerald" I asked weakly

"He's okay and I'm sorry for what happened to you"

"I dont appreciate your sympathy so drop it I'm an adult and I chose my destiny on my own you excluded"

"I know Oli but you ... you just dont understand " she heaved a breathe .

"I'm going to end the call if that's all you have to say!" I snapped

I'm sorry but sympathy was the last thing I was going to tolerate towards my situation at hand.

*****"You're offly quiet what's wrong?" My mother asked sitting next to me.

"Nothing" I replied standing up I wasnt in the mood of talking

"Are you walking away from me ?"

"No I need to use the bathroom" i excused myself.

Understand me I just couldnt bear being in the same room with my mother it killed me.

I didn't know how to tell her.

"Oli honey dinner is ready!" my mother called out.

"I'm not hungry" I yelled

"You're going to eat whether you like it or not" she commanded

And I left my room.

"Why haven't you been eating lately?" She asked

"Because I dont feel like it" I replied in all honesty

"What's up? You're not okay"

"You always say that these days" I retorted

"I am going to ask Nina what ever happend to you back in England because you do not seem fine"

"That won't be necessary" I sternly replied  my heart beating faster. If Nina told her.  My life would end.

"Then tell me yourself" she insisted

"There's nothing to talk about" I said standing up.

Upon leaving the room I went outside. Honestly I just needed air and space to breathe.

Then finally i gave in i was going to tell my mother about the baby one of these days. And I knew it would be a storm.

But I had to suck it up and face it.
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