Bring Me The Night

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When you choose to ignore something because you thought it's the best thing to do
but it just got worsened .

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It's been weeks since that incident happened, well It was actually planned,
I haven't talk about it to anyone yet. Even Arawn.

I'm not scared it's just,,It's unbelievable, like how can she plan something like that, I didn't report it to the police officers too, I'm worried.

What should I do?
I'm still confused and it's so painful to think that it's really happening, I'm in the point of regretting for giving a chance for our relationship even though it's clear already.

Maybe it's really the end for us, Maybe we need to stop this, it's pointless, she won't stop until I gave Arawn up. She has no mercy.

How?
He won't let go of me that easily,
I can't do this anymore. Even if I run away he will come and find me, I'm so bad at making decisions, it sucks.

"Hey are you okay? Kanina kapa tulala diyan ah"  I saw how her eyebrows furrowed, I looked away not minding her question, she place a glass of juice at the table in front of me and took her seat.

"Come on Ate, spill it" I glance back at her just to know she's staring at me while holding a bottle of dog shampoo, I felt guilty for not answering her, I just don't find telling it to anyone yet, I'm scared, I know they will freak out and maybe they will just go rush and accused Sirina.

We're at the living room, It's Saturday so I visited the house because Mom said we will plan something for my Birthday on Tuesday.

Akia held my hand and pulled me with her, we arrived at her room, she lock her room for some reason I don't know. I sat down on her bed while waiting for her.

"Ate..Ano nga problema? Share mo naman tutulungan kita promise." She pursed her lips and sat beside me, "Ate.. sigi na oh, nag aalala ako. Wag kang unfair, kapag may problema ako lagi mo akong salo tapos ikaw ngayon nagiisa" I look away when she said that, I really had the urge to cry. It's so hard, I don't know what to do.

"Ate.. kahit ano man yan, hindi kita pangungunahan, I will respect your decision, just tell me. Hindi ka nag iisa, you have me Ate, please don't be like this, nahihirapan din akong makita kang ganyan, I will help you, please" she begged.

I felt streams of tears flowed like a river down to my cheeks, I felt her gentle hug that made me cry even more. I sob like a kid, she's not talking anymore and just trying to calm me down, I felt guilty for dragging her with my problems, she's still a kid.

"Ate, is it about the resto?" Nilayo niya ako at umayos ng upo, she look serious right now, "I knew it, it was Ate Sirina right?" She asked again, I couldn't even have time to react, looks like she knows it already, is it really obvious?

"How d-did you know?" I ask, while wiping my tears.

"What's your plan now?" She ask instead, I didn't know what to answer.

"I don't know.. I want to leave.."

Her mouth set in a hard line "Leave? To where?"