Shakers Dreams

Bet - 40

I stretch my legs accross my bed and unwrap the towel from my hair. Ive been couped up in my room since i left dylans hotel just needing my own space for a bit.

What am i doing with my life? Im currently unemployed with no degree and my savings is getting lower by the week. I need to change. Jax was right when he said i need to stop with all the boy drama and get my shit into order. But finding a direction that doesnt involve dylan in my life doesnt feel right.

Why the fuck doesnt it feel right?

I grab my bag that jax not so happily went and picked up for me and pull my phone out to begin my google search on some tafe courses i could do. Before long i find myself looking at university once again. It cant be completely out of reach can it? I always got good marks all through my schooling. Obviously i can no longer study law that would just be wrong now considering.

I swipe through some more before landing on a bacholor of education, i mean i love kids, could i possibly study this and become a teacher? I open up the site and look through the requirements.. just over 6k a year for 4 years and bam i would have a career.

I spend sometime going through the application filling it all out carefully. I know im rushing into this but what better way to get yourself on track than to just throw yourself into the unknown and get out of my comfort zone. Surly my parents could help pay for this as once i start working i could always pay them back.

"How are you feeling?" Lisa asks stepping into my room with a peice of toast in her hand.

"I'm fine." I answer. Completely forgetting i told them i had huge headache, little do they know the headaches name is dylan. The past 2hrs was blissful where i didnt have to think about my other problems such as love life.

She stops chewing for a second before turning to my waldrobe and starts looking through it.

I turn back to my phone ignoring her as after i had already submitted my applicaton online i now continue my google search on one Mr forrester.

Everything i type, it comes up empty. I thought i could at least find one. But just nothing. The only thing that came close was his brother chase, there was plenty of him.

"What are you looking for?" I ask as shes annoying me going through all my clothing.

"Have you seen my light faded jeans anywhere?" She mumbles through a mouth full of food.

I glance back at my phone to a message i just received from dylan. Fuck does he know i was just stalking him through the internet?

"Yeah in the pile over there, mum just probably thought they were mine." I answer, with my finger hovering over the message not sure if i even want to open it just yet.

"Where are you going?" I ask before she makes a move for the door.

"Were're heading out for dinner." She pauses as she looks at me weirdly.

"What?" I ask. Was i suppose to know that?

She steps slowly towards me and sits down on the bed placing the jeans to the side.

"I thought you said you had a good night with dylan?" She questions looking slightly confused.

"I did."

"Well.. we're going for dinner are you still coming?" She asks.

"Oh i didnt know, you didnt tell me." I say throwing my phone down and re opening my waldrobe.

"Um, dylan was the one that invited us i just thought you guys organised it." She says picking up her jeans.

"Dylans coming?" I cringe.