Attack on Titan one shots

Cheater!Bertholdt x Suicidal!Reader

Warning: This one shot includes self-harm and suicidal thoughts. I am not trying to promote or say self-harm is a good thing. Read A/N at the end for help hotlines. I will try to get hotlines for your area as well.
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INSANITY CHEATER!BERTHOLDT X SUICIDAL!READER
5 Months Earlier

Your POV

"Just one more line," I whispered to myself as I held the knife about my wrist. I slightly pushed down on my wrist, I slid the blade over, making a straight line. I squeezed my eyes shut as I wince in pain. I stayed like that for a minute. As I opened my eyes I looked down at my wrist and saw that my arm hasn't stopped bleeding. 'Maybe if I wait for one more minute, it'll stop.' I thought to myself. I didn't want to clean it yet. People are still awake and the bathroom is on the other side of the building. I couldn't cover up with a jacket, it's really hot right now, people will ask questions, people will see my arm. I sigh as I leaned beside my bed.

The minute passed, and it still hasn't stopped. I started feeling a bit light headed, and my vision is starting to blur. I took a deep breath and squinted at the clock. I figured maybe there's not that much people in the halls. 'I should go clean up,' I thought. I took the knife I used and tucked it under my bed. I tried standing up, but hissed in pain. I fell back down and saw my wrist bleeding more. 'I need help!' I thought, but should've screamed. I crawled to my door as fast as I could. My vision is as clear as a steamy bathroom mirror now. My head hurts, and I'm getting dizzier. It looked like I was near the door, so I reached up and hissed more. I fell on my elbow, hitting it on the ground. "Fuck!" I screamed in pain. Tears now streaming down my cheeks, I sobbed as I tried to sit up again. The door opened and a figure appeared. I was pretty sure they were yelling my name. "Help..." Was all I said, after blacking out.

Bertholdt's POV

I was walking in the girls barracks, searching for (y/n)'s dorm. I started to have feelings for her, and I was looking for her to see if she wanted to go on a date. As I passed by one door I heard a girl's voice scream the 'F Word'. Although it was a familiar voice. I heard a loud thumb with sobbing following it. It sounded like (y/n). I don't care if anyone saw or heard, I tried opening the door by slamming against it. Finally opening, I looked and saw (y/n) on the ground. She was laying on the ground. Tear stained cheeks, bloody wrists, blood on the floor around her.

"(Y/N)!" I yelled. I ran towards her.

"Help..." She whispered, then blacked out. I tried waking her up. I looked at her wrists and saw cuts. I noticed it was still bleeding.

"Fuck," I said to myself. I lifted (y/n) in my arms, bridal style. I hurried to the bathroom as fast as I could. I set her down on the floor and took out the first aid kit and started cleaning (y/n)'s wrists. I hope she'll be okay.

Your POV

I woke up, realizing I was on my bed. 'Was everything that happened, just a dream?' I tried sitting up, but winced in pain. I looked at my wrist and saw it was bandaged. 'It wasn't a dream....' I lied back down. I turned my head and saw Bertholdt asleep on my desk chair. I looked at the clock and saw it was 2:00 AM. Bertholdt started shuffling in his seat. I stared at him for a while, until he finally woke up. His eyes met with mine and I quickly looked away. Hiding my face in my hair.

"(Y/n), you're awake." He sighed in relief.

"What happened?" I whispered. It was the only thing I could manage at the moment. (Did that make sense? XD)

"Don't worry about it. Just rest." He calmly said. He was about to stand up and leave but I stopped him.

"W-wait," I called. "W-will you, c-can you stay here? Tonight?" I asked. My cheeks started to heat up.