SCARS (Taehyung FF)

His Secret (2)

Taehyung's POV

"Can't you imagine what will happen and what kind of chaos will it make when you Die after a month Kim Taehyung-ssi?"

"Do I really have just a month Dr.Lee?"

"If you don't make any farther procedures you might have less than that. Next time you faint you might not wake up again."

"You know why I'm doing this. I'll be gone for once and for all. I don't wanna make a scene out of it for so long."

"What about your girlfriend then?"

"I know I'm selfish. I want to be with her at my last breath. But I won't be there to wipe her tears. But if I tell her now... It's like I cheated on her all along."

"She loves so she'll understand. Don't hide it anymore Taehyung-ah."

"You think I haven't tried. I tried so many times. But whenever I look at her face I cannot just risk loosing her. This 3 months are my happiest time Doctor."

"I didn't want to pressure you Taehyung. But it's getting out of hands. You need the surgery."

"How much time do I exactly have Doc? Don't be quit now please."

"Minimum 2 weeks maximum 4 weeks." 

He hung up the call. This is the first time he told me how much time I have left. But it didn't please me. I don't want to die. I finally want to live. I want to live with Y/N. Grow old with her. Why is it always when you finally find happiness something comes crashing on you?

I got ready. I have to live today. I'll live today, have my best day today, I'll be enjoy it with Y/N. I hope today is long enough for me. I'm just gonna live one day at a time. 2 weeks. 14 days. I'll love you for eternity but I can show that only for 14 days. I really love you Y/N.

"Are you ready?" She came into my room with that smile of hers. "I'll love you till my last breath Y/N. I promise you that." I said. She was startled by that. "I'll love you till my last breath too Taehyung. Let's go." She replied. Wait what? Why would you love me till your last breath? The sudden realization hit me like a truck.

What if Y/N stays alone for ever? What she actually can't have anyone else? I'm sure she can forget me after a year or so. But... What if she rushes the matter like last time...

We got into the car. Heading to her house. "Y/N?"

"Hmm?" She looked at me smiling.

"I've to tell you something." I said. "Yea what?" She asked fluttering her eyes. "I.. Urm.." What should I say? I'm gonna die in minimum 2 weeks maximum 4 weeks? "Yes?" She asked. "I- oh I got your dropping out papers this morning." I changed the topic. "Oh. Okay. Thanks babe." She giggled.

I took a right turn and asked her the weirdest question, "Do you wanna have sex with me tonight?" She moved her head at me so fast that we heard a crack sound. "W-What?" She shuttered. "I'll let you cum this time. You wanted to do it so bad last night." What AM I even SAYING?

She started going through her bag furiously and took out a small pill case. She took out a pill and swallowed it. "What was that?" I asked. "Um. I- I swore last night that I won't even take a step without getting a pill. And I forgot like always." She looked embarrassed and I laughed out loud. How the fuck can she be so cute all the time?!

"You go on I'll park the car." I said as she got out of the car pecking my cheek and leaving it light scarlet. 'I am a man. Why am I blushing like this?' I said this to myself for the thousandth time. I parked the car and made a call.