SCARS (Taehyung FF)

Mine

Taehyung's POV

Harry Harry Harry. I hate this name so much. I gulped down the blue cocktail which was supposed to be the strongest drink here. Why the fuck isn't it doing anything? Why can't I gulp down my thoughts? I don't wanna think about it but I'm consistently thinking about it.

Did she lie to me? Well she never said he wasn't her ex husband or something. She even said this is normal in America. The last words of Harry's kept on running in my mind. "Isn't it weird that we have the same surname? Harry Walker. Ryan Walker."  Does it mean...

I'm so pathetic. Why am I crying? I'm such a mess. Why why why? Why does it have to be like this? Right when I- right when I thought...

Does it really make sense? Y/N is 21 and Ryan seems like 7. Ryan even likes Harry. Why would a kid say that? And why did it make Y/N so mad at that time?

I need to ask her. I can't let this be like this. Why the fuck would she love that fucker and not me?? I tried standing up but stumbled back. Jungkook came out of nowhere to hold me straight. Well that cocktail did help.

"Hyung... Are you okay? Why did you drink so much?" He asked furrowing his eyebrow in concern.

"Do I need to ask people before doing anything? What am I? 5 year old?" I said harshly and instantly regretted.

"Mianhae. I'm going out for a while don't come after me." I said and made my way to go out. Jungkook followed. Who am I kidding thinking he'd actually listen to me.

"Hyung you'll get lost or something. Where are you going?" He asked. He had a point though. But it's not the time to think all this.

"I've turned on my GPS. If I call come pick me up or something. I've to go." I said and pushed him back. I hope I don't regret it.

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Me: Come out.

Y/N: What?

Me: Right now.

I walked towards her house. Not caring about anyone seeing me. I was standing near her porch. It was 1 in the morning and I don't know what I'm about to do here like a shameless brat.

I saw her walking up to me. The closer she was coming the farther away she seemed. Tears still rolling down my eyes nonstop. I can't believe I can be THIS selfish. She walked towards the backyard where her window was, I followed.

"Taehyung? Are you okay?" She asked. Even her usual words pierced through my soul like an arrow with poison in it.

"Y/N... Did you hide something from me?" I asked standing closure to her face. Who am I kidding? Who am I to ask her what she's hiding when I'm the biggest liar in this universe.

"W-what?" She shuttered. Why did she stutter? This alcohol is fucking with my mind. I feel so furious. Why am I doing this? Should I go back? How coward can I be?

"WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?" I raised my voice which made her flinch. Shit.

"Are you drunk Taehyung?" Do I disgust her now? Why is Harry better in her eyes?

"I fucking asked you first. Y/N." I asked through clenched jaw.

"What are you even talking about?" She whispered with so much pressure in her voice.

"Who the fuck is Harry?" I need straight answers so I'mma ask straight questions.

"Why are you bringing him again? Wtf is wrong with you Taehyung?" Why does it make her angry anytime I mention him? What did he do to her!?