My Peter Dan || Phan

Chapter 2

~Dan's POV~

Every once in awhile I get just this random burst of sadness and it won't go away no matter how hard I try and it's out of nowhere, sometimes I know why but others I have no clue what I'm upset over but it just won't go away and it's the worst thing ever because when someone asks you what wrong you have nothing but to say I don't know. Today was one of those days. I had no idea what was wrong but I had no motivation to get out of bed, eat, anything.

It was around the time that Phil and I would go and eat breakfast together so when I didn't even try to find energy to get up Phil, being not only the best boyfriend and best friend but the best roommate he brought our breakfast into the room and sat on the bed beside me, handing my bowl of cereal to me. I just shook my head in response, not really hungry truthfully. I took it and set it on the nightstand, turning onto my side and pulling the blankets up as I curled up into a ball. I could hear Phil sigh as he set his breakfast aside too, crawling beneath the blankets as he gently held me against his chest, just holding me in silence. He always knew what to do. At times like these I never liked to speak unless something was really bothering me. But it was mostly just my thoughts. Every little thing could easily set me off at the point. I was close to my breaking point. I turned to face Phil and looked up at him, tearing up a bit as he kissed my nose. I don't know why it was that but it was my breaking point I guess it was like when you're close to crying and the minute you get a hug that you really needed and it just makes you cry. I buried my face in his chest as I squeezed my eyes shut, not wanting the tears to fall down. I hated crying infront of Phil or anyone for that matter. I mean I know it's not bad to cry but just the thought of showing my weak side and ontop of that I'll look like a mess and fuck I hate this.

I held onto Phil's shirt tightly as I cried into his chest, not even gonna try to stop the tears at this point. There was no keeping them away. They won. They always won. Phil was always there though. He's been there for me since the beginning and hasn't left me no matter how much I tried to push him away a long while ago. I used to be so scared of losing him that I'd try to push him away to keep myself from getting hurt but when I realized he wasn't going anywhere everything was.. Okay. He's all I need and all I want.

It took me a long while to finally stop crying but when I did Phil was still right there, holding me close. I wiped my red and puffy eyes, Phil carefully moving my hands and doing it for me, wiping away my tears with his thumbs then giving my forehead a soft kiss. I didn't deserve him. I really didn't. He was so damn sweet to me and the best. He could do so much better than I could. I gave him a weak smile and sniffled a bit. "I.. I'll be okay." I muttered out, cuddling up to Phil, still just wanting to be held. That was until I heard his stomach growl then I just felt a rush of guilt for making him comfort me rather than eat his own breakfast. I pulled away and sat up, putting my face in my hands. "Damn it! I keep messing everything up." I muttered. His cereal he had made would obviously be all soggy and disgusting by now so there you go Dan, fucking everything up once more. Now Phil doesn't even get the chance to eat unless he wants to make a whole other bowl. Good job.

Everything was just falling apart and I don't even know where to start fixing things. It was just getting bad again. Whether I liked it or not. I glanced over at Phil who I know felt bad even though it wasn't even his fault. "I'm sorry.." I mumbled and leaned over, kissing his cheek. "I just.. I'm gonna go on a walk for awhile. I need to clear my head." I got up from my bed and pulled on one of Phil's hoodies I had in my room followed by some sweatpants and shoes. I walked over and gave his lips a soft yet quick kiss before I grabbed my phone and earbuds then walked out of my room then out of our flat.

~Phil's POV~

Two hours. It's been two hours and he still wasn't back. I didn't wanna call him and annoy him but I was so damn worried. I just waited it out though and just when I was about to call him, he called me instead. I quickly answered the phone, my heart breaking as I heard him trying not to cry on the other end and by the slight echoes from his sniffling I knew he was hiding in some bathroom.

"Where are you.. I'll come and get you and then we can come home and do whatever you'd like." I bit at my lower lip nervously as he told me he was at a small coffee shop, only going there since there weren't many people but it slowly got too crowded for him to handle. He gave me the streets name and then we got off the phone, Dan not wanting to stay on until I got there.

The minute I could find a taxi I got in and gave them the address, the driver taking what seemed like forever but was only about twenty minutes to get there. Damn Dan walked far. I paid the driver then quickly got out of the car, running inside the coffee shop and back to the bathrooms, knocking on the locked door.

"Come on Dan.. It's me." I said loud enough for him to hear me through the thick door. It only took a few seconds before the door was flying open and I was almost knocked over by the sudden hug. I frowned, getting a glance at his red and puffy eyes, even worse then before. It broke my heart to see him like this. It didn't happen all the time but when it did happen it could get bad. I kissed his head and held him in my arms, swaying a bit to try and calm him.

"Let's go home, yeah?" I whispered softly, gently lifting him up and walking out of the coffee shop. I held him close to my chest, getting back in the taxi that I took to the coffee shop.

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ANNNNNNNDDDD THATS THE END OF THIS CHAPTER AND IM SORRY ITS A BIT SAD BUT IM SAD AND I WANTED TO WRITE ANOTHER CHAPTER SO THIS IS THE OUTCOME ILL PROBABLY CONTINUE THIS ONTO THE NEXT CHAPTER AND STUFF SO ITS NOT COMPLETELY LIKE WTF WHY. BUT YEAHHHH WOOO IF YA WANT GIVE ME IDEAS FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER?? Ok ily bye