Heartbreaks Heal (Larry Mpreg)

I'm Broken..

Louis had absolutely no idea how he managed to get to Zayn and Gigi's in one piece. He doesn't really remember much after walking out of Harry's room... out of his life. He just knows that he's here and suddenly it felt like everything was caving in as he struggled to catch his breath. Praying that Zayn had some crazy best mate telepathy.

The sobs leaving his mouth came in waves, it was like coming how that Saturday night over and over again. He couldn't stop reliving it, no matter what bullshit he comes up with to say to people, he was broken. There was no denying that... he always had been since the day Harry left him.

"Lou?" A voice called from behind him.

Like magic Zayn was there , carrying in bags of shopping from their family car. Pausing as he took in the sight of his hysterical best friend.
"Shit mate!" He panicked dropping the bags to the floor and running over to grab Louis.

Louis collapses, his lungs burning as he desperately tried to gain control. The pain was overwhelming, he was drowning ... this was it . The wound had been ripped wide open and there was no way of healing again. Not without Harry, the one person who didn't want him around no more.

"Shhh it's ok Lou, come on mate it's ok." Zayn soothed , allowing Louis to clutch at him in a desperate attempt for stability.

"I-it's n-not." Louis hiccuped , a pained cry leaving his mouth as he stammered.
"I-I lost my b-baby Z... she's gone and she's been gone this entire time and I just- why does it hurt this much." He sobbed. "It shouldn't hurt like this no more."

"I don't think it'll ever stop hurting." Zayn whispered his own tears welling as he watched his friend fall apart. Something that he had experienced only once before.

"I-I saw H-Harry.. h-he told me to not come back. D-does that mean he doesn't care?"

"Of course not! God you're both exhausted both emotionally and physically... Louis he came back for a reason. He doesn't have any family here no more. You're the only reason he'd come back." Zayn insisted.

"I-I hate him.. god I hate him so much. Why did he do this to me?" The older lad cried.

"I don't know mate... I wish I knew." Zayn croaked , slowly guiding Louis into the house.
"But let's not forget you did some pretty rough shit after Amelia's death yourself... like clearing out her stuff before he came home."

Their neighbours would be having a field day right now and he really couldn't be arsed with it.

"Real helpful Z, god don't you think I know I fucked up doing that?! He basically just admitted that he hated me from that moment on... god even hearing him say those words killed me." Louis wallowed.

"Mate I'm just bein' honest, you both fucked up big time back then. But right now he's going to need his mates and we're all he has around here. Whether he likes it or not ... whether you like it or not . You both need to face up to the fact that what you had back then is done. Once you except that who knows... maybe things will start over." Zayn cooed.

"W-what if we never forgive each other... Zayn I want to forgive him.. I want him to forgive me."

"Then give it time... you can't rush these things Lou. Go back tomorrow, if he kicks off let em' just stay strong and make sure he knows you're there even if it's just as an old friend." Zayn suggested.
"I mean ... you two are so perfect for each other , I'd honestly be surprised if him coming back isn't a sign that you're meant to be."

"Always such a romantic babe." Gigi smiled , walking over to wrap the two men in a warm hug.
"I won't ask Lou... just know I'm here and I love you."