This is unedited. I'm back! I know it's been a minute since I last updated and I do apologize. This one was a bit difficult for me and I had to keep stepping away from it. As with most of the stuff I write I feel like this sucks but y'all may feel differently. I believe this is the longest one shot I've written so far. I also feel like there's not a whole lot going on in this one but it does mention self-harm so if this is triggering for you, please don't read.
Daphne's POV:
"I'll move in too, that way you won't have to spend any time alone with her. Me Mam won't mind."
I chuckle softly and shake my head. "Jade, love, you're not moving in. And I'm not worried about spending time alone with her because she likes my half sisters better than me, so she probably won't even be there half the time."
"I don't understand how anybody could like Amanda and Ashley more than you!"
"Thanks, Jadey!"
"I guess our best friend pact meant nothing to her." Jade says dejectedly and I pat her back. "Why did you even say you were okay with her staying at your house while her Mam is out of the country?"
"With my Mum and Janice being such good friends, there was no way Mum was going to say no to her staying with us. And I didn't see the point in saying no when I knew I wouldn't even be at the house that much."
"And how are you dealing with the urges?"
I look to my left at Kira.
"About as well as can be expected I guess. Anxiety was one of my triggers but the medication is helping with that. I'm working on identifying my other triggers and trying not to put so much pressure on myself but it's fuckin hard. And when I do get the urge I write, swim, or workout."
"What are you putting pressure on yourself about?" Questions Kira.
"School, sports, life." I sigh. "It's junior year and I have no idea what I'm gonna do with my life. Granddad knew what he wanted to do by the time he was twelve and Dad knew what he wanted to do by the time he was thirteen, it's the Moretti way. I'm sixteen! I push myself to be the best athletically and academically and I still feel like I'm not good enough. Granddad has talked to all my cousins about what they want to do with their lives but he hasn't said a word to me, none of them have. I don't know if they just don't care what I do with my life or if they agree with Alexis and think I'll never amount to anything."
"I really can't stand your biological Mam, Daph."
"Neither can I, Jade." I look at her then Kira. "So, who is gonna ask me the question?"
"Are you gonna tell the truth?" Kira questions.
"Haven't lied to yous yet, not gonna start now."
"When's the last time you cut, Daphne?"
I look at Jade. "Almost two months ago."
"Hey girls!"
The three of us look up to see Perrie standing in front of our table. With her is Leigh-Anne, Jesy, Amanda, and Ashley.
"Hi, Perrie. Hey, Leigh-Anne." I reply.
"So you're just gonna act like the three of us don't exist?" Questions Amanda as she motions to herself, Jesy, and Ashley.
I hum in response and look at Jade.
Kira asks, "Are we still on for today?"
"Nope. I have to be home today and I'll have a passenger after school anyways."
"Who?" Jade and Kira ask in unison.
I point at Jesy. "Mum asked me to give her a ride home since we're going to the same place and her Mum is already there. We'll go to the mall tomorrow."
