HAPPY ENDING | markhyuck/renhyuck [ ✔️ ]

05. Thinking About You

❝ (𝑴𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝑴𝒚 𝑯𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝑺𝒑𝒊𝒏) ❞

all renjun could do was mope. that was all he'd been doing since that day hyuck just spilled his whole heart. did he officially break up with minhyung? maybe renjun would try but... it felt wrong. wanting to be with hyuck felt wrong. why? why was it wrong to love? no, it wasn't wrong to love. it was just wrong to love donghyuck.

donghyuck, who kept renjun as a toy for a while only to discard him when he ended up at square one again. donghyuck, who was able to manipulate hearts so easily. lee donghyuck, who has renjun's heart so tightly in his hold it's at it's breaking point. and renjun felt that it was time.

when did wednesdays feel so long?

if donghyuck held renjun's heart, then why wouldn't he accept it? why did he have to fight? even renjun himself didn't know. his mind was telling him no but his heart, the same one holding onto its life in donghyuck's soft hands, was telling him yes; over and over again. and he was just standing there, tears in his eyes as he pled with hyuck.

please stop! you'll break it! you'll destroy it! please!

nothing felt right. renjun's life felt like a thousand piece puzzle but all the pieces were from different pictures. they fit, but not quite. renjun could live with it if he wanted to but he can't. he knew donghyuck wasn't good for him- look at how he was treated! but for some reason he still felt that he could love donghyuck if he wanted to. if he tried hard enough, he could. he wanted to. renjun felt that loving donghyuck would be paradise, heaven... all sorts of otherworldly comparisons.

he thought about how he'd get to see donghyuck's happiness and sadness, how he'd get to be there with his sunshine for the rest of their days. how he'd feel so warm next to him, for his simple presence radiated the warmth of a celebratory fireplace that burned with logs of pine. how their hands could potentially be lined up so perfectly that it felt wrong to let go. renjun thought about the dreams he'd have about donghyuck, how he'd probably forget what happened with only the memory of candy and sugar left on the tip of his tongue, as if he'd tasted the sweetest pair of lips the night before.

god, wouldn't it be so wonderful? wouldn't loving someone be so wonderful? but would renjun feel this happiness with donghyuck? right now? no.

no he wouldn't.

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renjun snapped out of his thoughts. fuck, why'd he go so deep? all that thinking about donghyuck made him want to see him in real life. just to see if he still felt something for the tan boy who worked at his favourite coffee house. just to check.

when he entered, he scanned the baristas behind the counter. he saw the girl he'd chatted with before, the one who spoke his language with the brightest eyes. "yuqi jie!" the curls in her ponytail bounced as she spun to make eye contact with renjun and her eyes widened, "renjun! it's been so long!" she motioned to her drink in progress and as she slid it across the pick up counter, she started up conversation with him.

"where have you been? i noticed you don't come anymore." she said, pouting. guess she was on packing duty now. renjun sighed, "i'm sorry i just... i really wasn't feeling it.." "had enough of the brand already?" she joked, making both of them laugh. renjun shook his head as she received another drink.

"ms. park, your caramel latte is ready!"

as soon as the customer left the counter, renjun spoke. "have you seen donghyuck? lee donghyuck?" yuqi pauses for a fraction of a second to think before shaking her head. no, he hadn't come in for about a week in total. but when he did come in, he had really low energy. "like really low. it's like he got the life sucked out of him or something." she giggled, obviously oblivious to the real issue.

and the one who caused it.

he grabbed a receipt a customer had left behind and scribbled his number on the back, handing it to yuqi. "can you... can you text me when he comes in? or when you know he's on shift?" she stared at it. "...sure- yeah, sure of course!" he smiled gratefully, "thank you so much." noticing there's was no queue he added with a shy smile, "also can i get the usual? if you still remember."