The devil all the time// a short Matthew Gray gubler fanfic

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⚠️SMUT AHEAD⚠️

It's Months later And me and Matthew have been fine, there's been a few arguments but he hasn't hit me or anything which is good, I'm still not in the best place mentally but I think I'm getting there, over the past months I've realised my feelings towards Matthew, I really like him, I don't just like him, I'm in love with him, I wish it could be someone else but I can't see myself with anyone other than him, I sound fucking crazy but that's probably because I am for falling in love with a complete psychopath.
I walked downstairs and to the kitchen to see Matthew, we had an argument last night so we haven't spoken to each other, I was washing out a cup and I could hear him humming a song, I listened more to what he was humming and realised it was adore you by Harry styles, I smiled to myself and started singing "walk in your rainbow paradise strawberry lipstick state of mind I get so lost inside your eyes would you believe it
You don't have to you say you love me you don't have to say nothing you don't have to say your mine
Honey, ah, ah, ah I'd walk through fire for you just let me adore you oh honey" I sang he turned around and leaned on the counter looking at me with a small smile on his lips, I could feel his eyes on me so I looked up at him with a smirk trying to contain my smile "your voice never gets old" he shook his head going back to making his coffee "so, you like Harry styles?" He asked looking at me again folding his arms "absolutely in love with him" I smiled "oh really?" He raised his eyebrows at me "yeah, who wouldn't be? He's Harry fricken styles, he was in one direction only the boy best band in the world" I said with a shrug looking up at him, he chuckled and shook his head grabbing his coffee and walking away "I like him to buttercup, we've got something in common" he said walking over to the couch and sitting down on it putting his coffee on the table and his feet up on the couch, I blushed at the name he called me then walked over to the couch sitting next to him putting my feet on the table, he looked really good today his short hair was a bit messy he had a white shirt on with grey jogger shorts and his odd funky colourful socks, I on the other hand looked horrible, my hair was down and a wavy mess, I was wearing a white vest with black silk shorts with black socks to, and I wasn't wearing a bra so I'm pretty sure you could see my nipples through this top but to be honest I'm past caring at this point.
It was a few minutes or so later and I was watching something on the tv then I felt something on my leg, I looked down and seen Matthew's hand slowly make its way up my thigh making my breath hitch in my throat, he kept going until his fingers were in between my legs making me gasp slightly, he moved closer to me moving my chin with his hand so our faces were inches apart "I want you to make love to" he whispered as our lips touched slightly, what did he just say? "What?" I asked shocked looking him in the eyes "show me how to make love" he whispered again, my heart sped up and the butterflies appeared again, I can't believe this is happening.
I nodded my head with a smile getting on top of him and pulling him into a soft bit passionate kiss "I've never made love with someone before" I whispered cupping his cheeks in my hands "just tell me how you want it, tell me how you think it should be" he said before kissing me again, my heart was racing I was so nervous and I'm so in love with this man, I started to grind on him which made him groan and grab my ass tightly, I like it rough but making love isn't like that it's all about affection and being gentle.
"Be gentle, don't think about my body, think about me" I whispered into his lips as I moved one of his hands to my thigh and the other one on my lower back grinding on him more, he gripped my thigh gently as his lips made their way to my neck, I shot my head back letting out a moan, his hand was in my hair pulling at it slightly, he then moved his other hand to my boob squeezing it, our lips met again this time the kiss was more passionate and deep, I ran my hand through his hair as he groaned at my touch, I pulled away and lifted my vest over my head revealing my bare chest, he looked at them biting his lip as he raised his hands to touch them as I put my head back, he leaned forward and started kissing them "your so beautiful" he said kissing down my stomach, I blushed and let out a giggle, I stood up and took off my shorts as he took off his along with his top "take off my panties" I said seductively looking down at him, he sat forward and pulled me closer attaching his lips to my lower stomach and pulling my underwear down, he took off his and I hoped back on his lap, I let out a gasp as he went in me, I grabbed the back of his neck slowly thrusting my hips against him, he put his head back on the couch so I put my hand on his throat lightly, I could tell he was shocked at my movement but smirked signaling he liked it, I leaned in and attached my lips to his neck "ugh, darling" he moaned making me smirk, we started to kiss again as he put his hands on my hips guiding me to go faster making us both a moaning mess, he gripped my hips tighter making it hurt slightly, I let out a whimper at his roughness "Matthew" I said through the kiss hoping he would loosen his grin on me but he didn't if anything it got tighter as he pulled my hips down so he was deeper in me, I moaned loudly holding onto the back on his neck as he kissed my neck roughly "Matthew, your hurting me" I whispered he loosened his grip and looked at me with slight panic "Fuck, I didn't meant to, I shouldn't be doing this" he shook his head going to take me off him but I stopped him before he could "it's okay" I said "I don't want to hurt you Darlene" he said looking up at me "I've lived with the devil long enough to take pain" I cupped his cheek with a small smile, he looked kinda hurt by what I said but he moved it passed him and kissed me gently "slow and rough but not rough enough to hurt me, that's how I want it" I whispered moving my hips against him again he nodded and kissed me.
We were both close to hitting our highs making us a moaning mess, he pushed me down on him further making me shut my eyes at the intense pleasure running through me "fuck baby" he moaned in my ear holding the back of my head, as we were getting closer I started to go faster driving us both insane "look at me" he said putting his hand on my cheek, I did as he asked seen as the last time I didn't he never let me finish, we locked eyes as we both soon hit our highs making me scream in pleasure and fall into his arms "fuck" he said breathing heavily, I chuckled and got off him laying on my back on the couch, he grabbed a blanket and joined me putting the blanket over us "so that's what making love feels like" he said "I think so" I chuckled looking up at him, he pulled me closer so my head was resting on his arm and kissed me gently on the lips "it was amazing babygirl" he whispered grabbing my ass, I chuckled and cuddled up with him more, we sat in silence for a bit until I spoke up "I've been thinking" I said looking up at him "about what?" He asked as he moved my hair behind my ear "about how i don't really know that much about you" I said "well what do you wanna know?" He chuckled "everything, your parents you-" I was going to continue but he cut me off "I don't think we should talk about that" he shook his head looking at the ceiling "why not? You know plenty of stuff about me and I know nothing about you, come on Matty" I said slightly annoyed at him making him sigh "Im Matthew Gray gubler I'm 30 years old-" he spoke but I cut him off moving on my elbow so I was looking over him slightly "your 30!?" I asked with wide eyes "yeah, why? Am I to old for you? Your like 22 right?" He asked making me chuckle "no actually I've only been with guys older than me but never one that's old enough to be my dad" I joked with a smile "ha ha very funny" he rolled his eyes playfully I laughed and rested my head on his chest "and for your information I'm 26, 27 in a few months but anyway continue" I said he cleared his throat and started to talk again "I was born and raised here in los Vegas, I don't have parents, never have, I was put into care when I was a kid because they didn't want me and neither did anyone else, I never got rehoused so I was misbehaving all the time, I just wanted a place to call home but I never got it. When I was 18 I got into the wrong crowd I guess and ever since then I've been in the most dangerous gang on the world, Ive never had a girlfriend, I don't do the dating thing, was never that type of guy, but I like it like that" he shrugged as the words left his mouth I felt sadness wash over me, that didn't hurt at all "your missing out, loving someone is fucking scary and it hurts sometimes but it's the best thing that could happen to you" I said looking up at him "tell me about it" he said softly placing his hand on my cheek and pecking my lips, I rested my on his chest feeling his heart beat, I could feel my eyes start to tear up so I closed my eyes soon falling into a deep slumber with my new found love laying next to me.