The devil all the time// a short Matthew Gray gubler fanfic

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"Darlene, get up and ready we're going to the club" I heard matthew say as he lightly shook me from my Sleep, I sat up and looked around and as I did my legs caught my sight I looked at them and they had big bruises spread around my thighs, I lifted Matthew's oversized shirt up to my hips to see more bruises and red marks, I guess he didn't go to gentle on me I didn't even notice "I did them?" I heard him say as he lightly traced his fingers over the blue and purple marks he had left on me, I looked up at him his eyes soon meeting with mine, I nodded and pulled The shirt back down "sorry love, I didn't mean to hurt you" he said softly placing a kiss on my forehead "it's okay, you didn't hurt me" I said giving him a slight smile, I stood up him mirroring my actions, he had a cup of coffee on his hand and i noticed he was already ready he was wearing his usual all black but he had a black button up with black skinny jeans and a black blazer his hair looked really good and he smelled extra amazing as well. I moved forward and wrapped my arms around his waist, he hesitated for a second but wrapped his arms around me to and put his head on the top of mine "okay, come on sooky go get ready" he said slapping my ass as he lifted his head from mine and loosened his grip on me slightly, I looked up at him and giggled looking into his beautiful dark eyes that for the first time had life in them, he leaned down and planted a kiss on my lips, I couldn't help but smile ear to ear at his actions "you look really good by the way" I smiled up at him and smacked his ass walking away like he's done with me multiple times "hey!" He yelled making me laugh, I walked into my room and got ready into a dress and did my hair and makeup then left.

(Darlene's outfit)

(Matthew's outfit)

We were sitting down with everyone then I felt cold finger tips on my thighs making me snap
My head down to see that Maya was tracing the bruises while mar Lenore and everyone else around us was looking at us even matthew, I looked at shemar then at Eleanor and Maya shaking my head slightly giving them a look to leave it alone, I didn't really want to tell them about what me and Matthew did last night, I felt myself turn red and I felt extremely embarrassed so I broke the awkward silence "I'm gonna go get a drink"
I said standing up "I'll go get it" Matthew said but before i said anything else he was already gone, I sat back on the seat waiting for Matthew to come back with my drink.
An hour later
"Where the fuck is he? He's literally been away for an h-" I was going to continue but something caught me off guard, I looked over at the bar to see matthew talking to a woman with platinum blonde hair, they were laughing and smiling while he had a drink in his hand, my drink actually. I tried to take my gaze off them but I couldn't no matter how hard
I wanted to it wouldn't happen. I can't explain how I feel my heart has sank down to the bottom of my stomach and I have a lump in my throat, I feel jealous, really fucking jealous.
Maya and Eleanor followed my gaze along with everyone else, I finally looked away from the pair and looked at everyone at the table
Who had sympathetic looks on their faces, I felt a big hand on mine I snapped my head down to see who's hand it belonged to and it was Mitch, we never really talked
But I knew he was a nice guy, he looked nice,
He gave me a tight lipped Smile and squeezed my hand soon letting it go, I appreciated his kind gesture i couldn't show it right now I was to upset, we sat silent for a bit until I spoke "you know what fuck it, excuse me!" I called the waitress over "can I get 10 tequila shots and um three of your strongest cocktails please" i smiled at the waitress who nodded with a smile and walked away, everyone was looking at me "what? It's on his card" i shrugged making everyone laugh.
It was a few hours later and I was completely shitfaced, good. I didn't drink all the shots to myself because may lenore and mar had the fear incase I put myself in hospital with alcohol poisoning.
"we had Sex last night" I said out of nowhere with a blank expression looking up at shemar and the two girls, it was just shemar Maya Eleanor me and Mitch now at the table everyone else went home and Matthew is still with the girl at the bar "that's why I'm bruised, he asked me to make love to him, then he's all over some slut in a dirty club" everyone sits shocked, no one knows what to say so it's completely silent, I felt tears brim in my eyes so I stood up "okay, I'm going home, tell Matthew I was sick or something I don't care" I stumbled getting out of the Booth mar grabbed my hand making me look at him "are you okay? I think you should sit for a bit, your to drunk" he said I shook my head and wiped away my tears that fell from my eyes "hey! What's going on" Matthew came up behind me cheerfully with a smile on his face "nothing I'm going home" I said holding onto the table not daring to look at him because I know if I did I would just breakdown "okay, let's go" he smiled putting his hand on my arm to help me but I yanked it away from him only making me stumble more.
We got up to his apartment and I fell In the door then proceeded to try and take my heels
Off but I failed miserably and fell on the couch making me groan "had to much to drink?" He asked walking in front of me bending in front of me to undo my heels, I ignored his question because I thought it was stupid to ask "are you still human?" He asked waving his hand in front of my face, I have my eyes shut and my head was hanging slightly, I didn't have the energy at all to talk to him "okay, come on" he laughed helping me up but I groaned and shoved him off me "okay moody, I'm just trying to help you" He said from behind me, yes I know but I'm drunk and annoyed at you.
We finally made it to my room I walked in and leaned on my walk-in wardrobe "can you help" I asked looking up at him with my hair over My face "of course" he chuckled moving my hair from my face, why are you doing that. He gave me my clothes and he was ready to walk out "wait, you need to help me undress" I said not bothering to look back at him "I don't think that's a good ide-" he said but I interrupted him "why not? Because your gonna see me half naked? Never stopped you before, did it" I said struggling to unzip my dress "it was different before" he said coming up behind me and helping "it was different because you'd never seen me naked before and now your tired of me and ready to throw me away to go to your other toy you found right?" I slurred "what? No, it's different because you were sober" he said making me roll my eyes, I pulled down my dress and put on the t shirt he handed me, I walked over to my bed and lied down, Matthew came over to the side of my bed towering over me "well, I'll see you when you aren't mad at me for no reason and when your sober" he said about to walk away "wait gube, stay, please" I held into his hand not wanting him to leave just yet, he looked down at our hands he looked slightly taken aback by it "gube?" He said softly with a small smile looking down at me "yeah, your my little gube" I said pulling him into the space beside me on the bed, I didn't really know what I was doing but I was going along with it.
I turned on my side looking at Mathews side profile, he was so beautiful it hurt, everything about him is breath taking. He turned his head to look at me as I let a tear fall from my eyes "hey what's wrong" he asked wiping away my tear "I wanted to be the girl you were with tonight" I said moving back on my back to Look at the ceiling as he looked at me "I want to be the reason you laughed like that, I want you to look at me like you Looked at her, I want you to smile at me and touch me the way you did with her" I confessed sniffing slightly "you hurt me matthew, and the thing is I could fall for you if I wanted to and I could get attached and love the hell out of you, but I can't because your the devil all the time" I whispered letting more tears fall, he didn't say anything which made me more upset but what do you expect right.
I cleared my throat and whipped away my tears I looked at the bottom of the bed and noticed his bright odd socks, I never did get around to asking him about them, nows a good chance I guess "you always wear bright socks and they never match, why?" I asked looking up from his feet to his face "I think you should never take yourself to seriously" he shrugged looking at me turning on his side, what he said made me giggle, he was such a strange man "why are you never home? And if you are your always in your office doing something" I asked he crossed his arms and locked eyes with me which ever failed to give me butterflies "I get very little sleep. Because of work, But I try to stay constantly busy. My fear is that if I stop working I'll, like, die. So throughout my life I've always tried to remain busy, and I sort of know no other way. I think if my heart rate slowed it would affect my constitution, strangely. I've been trained to do that" he spoke making me slightly shocked, he's basically scared to die but he kills people for a living? Makes sense (mark the sarcasm) "so that's why you constantly have a cup of coffee in your hand huh?" I said making us both chuckle "this is terrible, but you know, I don't think I've ever said no to a cup of coffee in my life" he smiled I looked at him for a second and started laughing "it's just to good to say no" he chuckled "my head hurts so bad" I said closing my eyes with a sigh "that's what happens when you have a shit tun of alcohol" he said I groaned trying to get comfy on the bed, a few seconds later I felt his hand move my hair from my face and stroke my cheek making me more tired, he removed his hand from my cheek so I decided to turn around so my back was facing him, I felt the bed move and him getting closer to me, he wrapped his arm around my waist pressing his chest to my back "forget I'm the devil just for tonight so I can hold you tight" he spoke making my heart skip a beat, I moved back pressing myself more into him and intertwining our fingers "goodnight gube" I whispered "goodnight my darling" he replied softly leaving a kiss on my neck, I closed my eyes falling into a sleep with his arms wrapped tightly around me. I wish he would let his guard down just a little, he always pretends that he doesn't need me or anyone but I know he does, everyone needs someone, but 'he's the Devil all the time he doesn't need anyone'.