Safe Haven

Chapter Twenty

Fourteen days.

Fourteen fucking days.

Two full weeks since Jamie ran out of my room and left me completely confused.

"I really like you. Not just as a friend."

Those words never left my mind and I don't know what to do with them. I haven't seen her ever since that day and I miss her.

Allie

Jamie

Can we please talk?

I know you've been avoiding

me for the past weeks

If you don't want to see me

or answer my calls it's ok

But can you at least text me?

Jamie

i'm ok allie

i just need some time

I put my phone away and stare at the ceiling above my bed. She didn't show up to have lunch with us as usual, at Calc she would sit on the other side of the room and leave before I could get to her.

I'm not going to her room because I know she needs some space and I don't want to push her. And even if I did go after her, I don't know what to do or say. I'm still trying to wrap my head around what she told me.

She likes me.

I don't know how to feel about that. I mean, of course I like her! She is one of my best friends. But what about the things that happened on Valentine's Day? I've been so overwhelmed these weeks that this hasn't even crossed my mind.

The surprise of her telling me she liked me completely threw me off, and she left in such a hurry I wasn't able to say a word. I guess it was a good thing she needed time because so did I.

Could this be Matt still messing with my head all over again or is it really me? Just the mention of his name makes me feel grossed out now. How could I have ever loved him? Well, at least I thought I did. But that was it. Loved, as in the past. I am completely over him and the shit he put me through, the whole page has been turned long ago and I'm not adding any more words to it. Ever. But what is the next page?

Could Jamie be it? I never felt for Matt what I feel for her. She makes me feel things he never did. Jamie is a friend, we're equals and she's always there for me. Matt was just a boyfriend, he never never gave us the opportunity to build a friendship within our romantic relationship. Isn't that a huge thing that should be present in the person you choose to be your partner? Shouldn't they be you friend too?

Holy fucking shit.

I like her. Really like her. But I can't rush to her right now. I have to let it all sink in and make sure this is what I really want. I am not hurting her like that, she means too much to me. She asked me for time and that's what I'll give her.

Fuck time.

I've been laying on my bed for almost three hours and I know what is going on.

I like her. A lot. I can't wait anymore.

Allie

Hey Jess