Walking In Flames

Chapter 10

I hurried into St. Luke hospital towards the receptionist desk panting profusely.

"I'm looking for a patient" I said trying to steady my breath.

Name

"Stella Smith" I was already getting impatient my hands were already sweating as I watched the young petite woman type something on the keyboard before flashing me a sad smile.

She's in the female's ward C.

I gave her a small nod and quickly ran with my heart pounding.

What if I lose her. She's the only family I have left

After I received that phone call from Rose after hearing her panicked voice. I was so scared. I can't loose everything.

Flash back

Rose: Hey where are you

Me: I  Just got back from school what's up

Rose: I need you to come to the hospital right now. St Luke's hospital i need you to be there now. Your mom isn't feeling too well.

I felt my world crashing. I felt numb. Groaning in frustration I slammed my phone to the wall.

Damnit my phone crashed. I guess I have no phone now.

Why is life so cruel to me. Why do I have to suffer like this. What have I done to deserve this.

I wept with my head against the wall.

Hurriedly, I got up and wiped my tears. Crying won't solve any problem. I took a quick shower and put on a peach gown. I didn't bother combing my hair or applying make up why should I when my mom is in the hospital. I grabbed my purse and left the house as quickly as possible.

End of flash back.

I ran down the hall bumping into people in the process and muttering " I'm so sorry" to them.

I felt sick. I really hate hospitals. Is it because of the smell or  because of the white walls. Why can't it be any other color except white. It can be blue, green or any other color but white. Most of all, I get irritated by the smell. There's this kind of hospital smell that says "Yeah this is the hospital".

I pushed the door open to find the pale body of my mom, with needles connected to her body. She was on drip. I watched her as she slept silently.

Where's Rose?? I thought she was here

I sat down on the chair beside her bed and took her cold hands into my warm hands. That's when I saw Rose rush though the door.

"Oh thank goodness you are here" She said as soon as she entered the room.

"Can I talk to you" she asked softly

I just gave a slight nod as I followed her out of the ward.

So you might be wondering why your mom is at the hospital.

Yeah

She umm ..... She..... She has ...... Cancer and umm...... The doctors said she had two months left to live. She blacked out in my house today. I'm sure you don't know any of these but she's been living with cancer for the past two years and she didn't bother to tell you any of it. She had it even before Julie died but she didn't want to bother anyone. She didn't want to be a burden to anyone. I came to the country when I heard how severe this sickness was.

My world was crumbling. I lived with my mother for two years and she never told me she had cancer even before I lost Julie.

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After I came back from the hospital, I walked to the cemetery where my half was buried. After Julie died, I felt like my half has ripped away from me. I came with some rose flowers. She always loved rose flowers so I came with some

I stopped walking when I saw the name engraved on the grave stone
Julie Smith

By the side of the engraved words was the portrait of my twin sister.

I sanked into my knees. I haven't visited her for over two weeks.

Hey sis!! I'm so sorry that I haven't come to visit you for so long. I'm really sorry. But sis, I've got something to tell you. I pause for sometime before I started weeping. Sis, mom has cancer. She hid it for two years. Two good years and she didn't tell anyone. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do. The doctor said she had two months to leave then I would be left alone with no family. Sister, what's the point of living when everyone you love go away. Does it mean no one loves me. Don't I have the right to be loved. You went first and now mom is leaving. What would I do sis. I sniffled. What would I do, I said in a small wisper. And sis I just want to tell you that I love you sis. I love you with all my heart. I couldn't bear to watch you died. But you are always in my heart. When you love someone, they dwell in your heart..... forever.

I stood up after talking to my sister, I glanced at the grave one last time and dropped my flowers.

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😢🤧🤧. It was pretty hard writing this chapter because I couldn't stop myself from crying. Jayden is hurting a lot.

*Drinks a glass of water*

Hey

I just want to say that whatever you are passing through today. Could it be depression, loss, or anything. Everything is going to be alright. Just keep on hoping. I held on to hope. Everything might not go back to normal but......*sighs* just have faith. You don't know, everything happens for a reason. This isn't the end of the world. Move on, forget the past which might be hard to do so but just try, hold on to faith and hope and most of all Trust God.

Whoa I can't believe I'm the one saying that *claps*.

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I don't know how cancer works. I don't know if the patient blacks out or something. I don't really know and I don't feel like researching about it...

I'm sorry this chapter isn't long as expected

Ok I'm on the train to the next chapter don't forget to vote and comment. Feel free to correct any errors you find. I'm not perfect I make mistakes a lot.

Love you all😘😘

Vi-kio 😜(is it really necessary)