Walking In Flames

Chapter 11

Warning: Trigger content, suicide attempt. If you don't like it then you can skip it

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Jayden

You bastard, I told you not to do it. You betrayed me Julie. I'm sick of you Julie. I'm sick of you. You are nothing but a pain in the ass. I yelled furiously at the girl I call my twin who was standing in front of me.

Jayden please calm down. Calm down Jayden. Please let me explain. She said

I don't want to hear the shits that would come out of your stinky mouth Julie. I shouted

You know what, I need a break so I would leave the house then I would come back so we can sought everything....

There's nothing to sought out Julie. I don't ever want to see you again..........

I jerked out of my sleep, sweating profusely. That's the last conversation we had before Julie passed out. I didn't realize I was crying until tears dropped on my hands. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate everything. People I love leave me. Everyone hates me. What's the point of living. I tried suicide many times but I'm always rescued. I drank poison, I stabbed myself continuously but I didn't die. Why! Why! This world is so cruel to me. Life is so cruel.

I wept on my pillow. I need to be strong. I've tried being strong but it's not working. I'm weak. So.....weak.

I glanced at the clock 4:04am. Mom is still in the hospital. The doctor called me yesterday after I came back from my sister's grave telling me that she had woken up but I was too weak to go.

Mom!!! I screamed, you can't leave me mom. You are my last hope, my only family left.

I grabbed my song book, the song of my life. I opened the first page. The picture of my family (my mom and my sister) was pasted there and I wrote a lyrics titled "Happy Family", I flipped to the second page called "Stucked pies" I continued flipping the pages till I got to where my pain started. I titled the lyrics "Pain". I opened a new page but I didn't know what to write. Words can't explain my pain.

First tears came out of my eyes, second, third and it started streaming out. I cried a river.

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I walked into the bathroom. I planned on visiting my mom today. Looking at my reflection in the mirror, I looked like shit. I looked pale. My eyes were bloodshot and puffy, my face was swollen, my hair was sticking out here and there like a nest. I was passing through pain.

Stripping out of my clothes, I took out a toothbrush, applied a minimum amount of toothpaste and brushed my teeth. After brushing my teeth, I decided to have a warm shower.

Drops of warm water hit my skin. I tried forgetting my pains. I took out my shampoo and washed my hair.

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Looking at all the clothes in my wardrobe, I settled on a yellow T-shirt and a black ripped jeans. I wore my shoes, where's my phone damnit. I would have to buy a new phone. Grabbing my purse, I left my house hurriedly without eating

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I entered my mom's room, seeing her awake calmed me down.

"Mom" I said breathlessly

She flashed me a small smile

"Mom" I said again with tears already flowing out of my eyes as I ran to hug her.