Glee Spring Break

Aftermath

(Brittanys POV)

"Guys I don't know what to do, Santana is never going to forgive me." I cry to Rachel, Tina, Mercedes and Kurt.

We just got back from Sugars birthday celebration and I pulled Tina, Mercedes and Kurt into mine and Rachel's room. I know they're all on Santana's side, rightfully so. I would be too if I were them. But I feel horrible and I need help. I love her and I don't know how to fix things.

"Britt, you kissed another guy. Right in front of her." Kurt says as if he's trying to make me understand.

"He kissed me!!" I yell as more tears run down my face. "And I didn't even realize what was happening until Santana pulled him away! I didn't kiss him back!!"

"But you let him be all flirty with you." Mercedes says.

"Guys I know I messed up! I didn't realize he was flirting with me until he put his hand on my leg. I get how it may have seemed like something more before because we were sitting close, but when he put his hand on mine and was leaning in to talk to me, I swear I thought it was all friendly! And after he put his hand on my leg, I was explaining to him that he shouldn't do that but before I even finished my sentence, he kissed me."

I can tell they're all thinking about what I just told them.

"Look Britt, we know you're the sweetest thing in the world and would never intentionally hurt Santana, but you did. I know you don't like how you guys left things, but can you blame her?" Tina says.

"We understand that you didn't realize what he was doing was anything beyond friendly, but I don't think Santana is going to quickly forgive you for everything because it was an accident." Rachel adds.

"How do I fix it??" I cry into Tinas shoulder.

"I think you need to give her time." Kurt says, reaching forward and rubbing my knee.

I bring my hands to my face and rub my eyes. "I don't want to! She means everything to me and it kills me that I hurt her and that I might lose her! I want to spend every waking moment with her, how am I supposed to not be around her when she's my favorite person in the world??"

They all just look at me and I can tell by their faces they feel bad for me. I want one of them to say something that will help me, but I know there's nothing they can do.

"You know how Santana gets when she's mad—" Tina tries comforting me but I cut her off.

"That wasn't Santana being mad." I say. "Santana was mad at Rory, she went off on him. That's what she does when she's mad. All she did was tell me she didn't want to talk to me. She didn't blow up on me like she does when she's mad. She just walked away from me. That wasn't Santana mad, that was her hurt."

I pause and start to cry harder. "And that's even worse."

"I know it hurts right now," Kurt says. "but she won't be upset forever."

Rachel nods. "Santana loves you, Brittany."

"It's true." Mercedes adds. "Brittany I'm not a fan of what you did. I know it wasn't intentional and I love both you and Santana. I would be just as upset with her if the roles were reversed. Santana is one of my best friends. We may not always act like it, but she is...." She pauses. "My point is, we've known Santana for years. We've seen her happy. She's happy when she's with you. You make her happy. She'll come around, eventually."

"Yeah." Kurt says. "I mean Santana may make fun of me and we may get on each other's nerves a lot, but she's one of my best friends too. I want to see her happy. Mercedes is right... when Santana is happiest, it's because of you."