Glee Spring Break

Because I love you...

(Santana's POV)

Still crying, I forced myself out of the hot tub and into the bathroom. Luckily, Quinn was still out so she didn't see what a mess I was. I took a shower and just sobbed harder. My chest felt tight and my eyes were stinging from my tears. How did everything fall apart so fast?? When I got out of the shower, I walked back out to the balcony and just looked over the resort. I looked down to my left and saw the pool where Brittany and I sat and talked on the first day. I picked my head up and looked at the rows of the balconies. One of them was Britts, I just didn't know which one. I wanted to climb over all of them and talk to her, but again, I couldn't move. So instead I just held my hands together with my arms on the railing and continued to cry.

"Hey San! How was your night?" It was Quinn. She came up and stood beside me on the balcony but I quickly jerked my face away so she couldn't see.

"San?" She tapped my arm. "San look at me." She grabbed my face and turned it towards her and she gasped after seeing my tear stained face. "Oh my gosh. San, what happened??"

"I fucked up, Q." I said and lost it again. She brought me into a hug and we stayed there for a couple minutes. "I'm gonna go get Puck okay? And we will talk through this." I nodded.

She left and returned shortly after with Puck. I sat on a chair against the wall, facing the railing, and Quinn and Puck took two chairs against the railing, facing me.

"San, what happened?" Quinn asked again. I looked up to face them and I saw they both looked really worried.

I took a deep breath. "We... we were sitting in the hot tub. And... and we kissed." Quinn and Puck's eyes went wide but they didn't say anything. They let me continue. "Then... then eventually I realized what was happening. That I wasn't ready for everything to change so fast and I just... I just got scared. I know I love her but I got scared. So I stopped. And she got mad at me and she told me that she doesn't know what to do anymore." I wipe my eyes.

"Santana, do you want to be with her?" Puck asks.

I nod my head.

"Then you have to tell her."

"It's not that easy, Puck!"

He sighs. "Santana, I know. I can't even imagine what you must be going through. But I know you're going to be even more miserable if you lose her and she moves on with someone else."

"Santana, she likes you. She made that clear. Doesn't that take some of the fear away?" Quinn asks.

"I guess. But it doesn't take away the fear of my family..."

"Then let's tell them."

"What?!" I look at Quinn.

"If you know they accept you, would it make it easier to accept your feelings and admit them to Britt?" She asks.

"I don't know... maybe." I tell her.

"Santana I don't want you to lose Britt. I won't let you. You love her and she makes you happy, you deserve to be with her." Quinn tells me.

"I agree. I think you should tell your family. Let's FaceTime them right now. We'll be right here." Puck adds.

Quinn goes inside and comes back with my phone. She hands it to me but I just hold it. I don't open it.