2 Lines // Calum Hood

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My broken heart was still and for a moment, I only felt numbness. And then an anger and sadness surged through me with so much power, I knew not what to do. My heart stopped beating, for it had only beat for him. My mind went black, as did my heart.
He tricked me into this bullshit world and like everybody else in my life, he left me and fucked me over but this time it wasnt only emotionally.

The ride home was quite, Yasmin keeps glancing my way as if I was going to break into this monster that trashes everything. To be honest even i thought that would happen, I don't handle break ups really well hence the last break up. But this one is different, inside I knew what was going to happen but i still let it, so I guess the person I should be mad at is myself.

There are no tears in my eyes and I had wear no emotion, just staring into the road and pinching my thighs in the process.

We reach our apartment and we quietly walk in to find a fort with tubs of ice cream and a movie put on. I turn to Yasmin with tears in my eyes and I hug her tightly. Just when I thought my world is nothing and worthless, I still have my best friend who even though I met 2 months ago is the closest thing to love and family I'll ever have.

-

We finished 'the Vow' that left us bawling our eyes out. Yasmin wasn't really the one that picks appropriate movies for appropriate occasions.
After crying so much we started to hysterically laugh at how idiotic we are crying over a movie. For a moment every problem from my mind disappear and the only thing i focus on is Yasmin and how grateful i am for her.

"So do you want to talk about it?" She asks sympathetically wiping tears of laughter from under her eyes.

"Nothing really to talk about, he wrapped me around his fingers and tossed me away when he was done playing. I was a challenge. He wanted me to stay the night and when I finally did, it broke," I keep a straight face even though my eye burns.

"I thought he told you he loved you?"

"He did but that was only to get my deep darkest secret out of me."

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Our climaxes met as he melt his body against mine, his mouth trailing down my chest. I gripped the sheet harshly and let a out a sigh of pleasure.

My hands trailed up his chest and i laid on him. He kissed my head and rubbed my back.

"You still going to leave?"

"I think you might've completed you're challenge, Mr. Hood," i lightly smiled, looking up into his eyes.

"I don't know why you trigger me so much, Sia, it's only been a week and a half but it felt like months. You make me feel different. How can you just walk into my life, be a challenge and make me fall in love in just a week?
Yea, I love you, Miss Cassia Joes. The way you speak poetically yet informally, the way your eyes sparkles when you get excited, the way bite your lips when you get stressed and the way I get to hold you,"

I immediately sat up and stared at him for a good 5 seconds, mouth hanging out. I shook my head as i started to laugh.

"Funny joke, boss!" I patted his shoulder but I froze after he showed to emotion what so ever and his eyes turned to a black shade intimidating me. I got up of the bed and heading to the door, unaware of the whole situation going on. It was just too much for me to handle and i needed air.

"Don't go."

"No. This is impossible. How the fuck can you be in love with me? Even worst under a week? I am the definition of bullshit. I fuck shit up and no one loves me ok? Stop lying god," I covered my face with my hands and pushed my falling hair backwards. I stomped out of the room putting my clothes on quickly but he grabbed me by my wrist and suddenly im faced with his chest. I squirmed hoping to fall out of his grasp but he just grabbed me tighter.

"I'm like a butter knife in a sword fight, worthless, unloved and unwanted. Surely, you can get any woman, Mr. Hood. I'm just a broken record that even though the pieces are glued together, will never play the same. You don't want me trust me. You barely even know me!" Tears started to stream down as I thought of all the horrible things that happened. It was all true, i don't deserve anyone, let alone the hottest CEO.
He let go of my wrist and cupped my face in his hands, wiping away my tears with his thumb. His face softened and he kissed my forehead gently, easing me.

"I do love you, whether you believe it or not. Your pass does not define your whole life. You are wanted, wanted by me. I want to make you feel all the love that you deserve, i want to touch you where you haven't been touched before and i want to hold you every night and never let you go. Just except it Sia, theres no going back," he smiled softly as he carried me in a bridal way onto the sofa.

"My brother and i ran away from Arizona to new york, few years ago. Our parents we're just about done with my brother getting detention everyday and me not even bothering turning up to school. They told us if they see us doing it one more time there would be consequences and we laughed it off, thinking they were joking and we did it again.

One day my brother and I came home around 6, he was just done with his detention and I was done in the park.
We went home and our parents were sat there on the table, smoke practically blaring out of their ears and there were holding on to these sticks about a meter long. We thought it was i joke but it wasn't, next thing we knew these sticks were hitting us repeatedly. Our bones felt like it was going to crack, the striking pain travelled to my eyes and tears spluttered out. As soon as my mum saw this, she kneeled down and pulled back my hair making me winced,
"You don't have to fucking cry because you know what this is all your fault and you didn't even deserve to me born, little bitch,"

Funny how that is still craved into my mind after years ago," i laughed emotionlessly. He grabbed my hand and rubbed it softly, trailing little patterns and nodding his head for me to continue.

"Anyways, it was like that for the pass 2 weeks, we would come home quite late hoping they would be asleep but every night they would be sitting there, with a bottle of tequila, laughing among themselves with a stick beside them. It was the same routines everyday, both my brother and i were basically paralyzed, our bodies were purple and we could not feel anything, physically and emotionally so we decided to run.

We skipped from town to town hoping someone would take us in, we didn't have anyone else so we had to rely on each other until we'll he turned his back on me and relied on a bottle of absolute and a bag of cocaine instead," by that point i was just mourning and i couldn't continue. Every feeling i thought i could control was flooding back to me.
Calum told me i didn't have to continue and i couldn't anyways. I was like a bottle of a water thrown across the wall.

The rest of the night Calum just held me and i couldn't ask for anything more.