The Gift | LEE FELIX

The Mute

Felix POV

I had to walk away, and it wasn't the best idea when I realize that as soon as I stepped out of the room.

Why can't I answer her? That could've been the right chance to tell her, what I should've told her so many times.

I can't just kiss her anytime I want, whenever I want and then make her look dumb. If the other part of me could get out of my body, I could punch myself real hard.

No way things will be the same when we return home.

Well I should have known that before I decided to be chicken and fly.

How hard is it to tell her I like her?

I mean shit..i always steal kisses from her, i guess that's my way of saying that I really like her but why is it so difficult to translate them into words? How hard is it really?

This the part that I am most scared of. Talking.

I continued walking, trying to find my way and check the rest of the crew. I wasn't even looking where I am, and was just focused blankly staring at my feet while it moves, till I hear someone call me. Chan.

"Felix, yo wait up.." He rushed towards my direction, that made me somehow get back to my senses. I tried to compose myself before turning around to meet him.

"Hey Chan, I was just about to go and find you guys." 

"We're already checking in, bugs are bugging us already by the beach side, so we had to move earlier too." I just nodded after hearing what he said, my mind is still somewhere else.

"you okay bro?" he asked again, giving a light tap on my shoulder..

"it's y/n right?" as soon as I heard her name my head just automatically focus, and listen to anything that has got to do with her. Chan continued to speak, while my mouth is still very much shut.

"how is she? Seoyon told us she's fine, so why do you still look like shit?" I smiled after he said that.

"yeah she's fine, but she's very mad..so trouble it is." I shrugged as we continued to walk headed to the lobby to join the rest of the boys.

"she's just probably hungry..you know girls" we both chuckled as I agreed with him.

"Here's our boy!" Hyunjin saw us and waved.

"Food..he needs food" Chan told him and slouched himself in the lobby couch while checking on Minho's current game.

"Ah yeah, we got food but not for you bro.." Han answered.

"It's for Y/N don't eat it, buy yours." Minho seconded, while his eyes are still focus on his mobile game.

I sigh frustration and threw some sarcasm on them..

"Oh God, appreciate your thoughts...she's not the only one hungry you know." now throwing tantrums and tapping my chest..

"Yeah, he Michael Phelped his way to the shore carrying her.." At least Jeongin understood my hardships for the day. He gave me a wink while we fist bump before I stretched my arms and cuing Han to give me the 'food' he was saying.

He handed me the food, I was about to leave when Chan stopped me again. 

"Felix, catch!" He threw me a key card. 

I almost forgot that I am not staying the night with her.