The Gift | LEE FELIX

The Winter

Winter finally came, not only in Seoul, but in my--i mean our apartment itself. After that beach trip, alot of things weren't exactly the same between me and my co-owner. We haven't really talked for almost two weeks, I mean yeah we do talk, but in a civil way alone.

He won't play around me anymore, nag me to cook, knock on my door randomly, annoy me and most of all, no surprise kisses, no eating together or just not simply being us the way we were.

I did not realize living with a once complete stranger would do so much to me. I have so many things in my mind but everything is so occupied right now of my growing concerns about him.

He left early today for work, and as usual I know he won't be home till midnight or so.

I, on the other hand finished my work from home stuff, basically just managing our small business left in US with my mom. I had a nice chat with her too, and she reminded of why exactly I am here.

"Y/N, i wonder how long will it still take for you to finish the paper works there, I really miss you here.." the sound of her voice is like a warm cover that's just what I need especially on this weather.

"I know Mom, I just need few more months, the building guys said it'll be done in 5 months, 3 months is done so it'll be over soon.." I can not tell her why everything is taking so much time, I can't tell her about Felix.

"if you need any help I can fly myself there..5 months is too long, I thought you'll be back in 2 months max.." all she could do was sigh out of frustration.

"patience mom, patience, i'll be home before you know..I gotta go, I need to prep for foooddd.." we said our byes as I ended our video call before we end up crying while talking..Oh how I miss her.

I moved to the kitchen, and started to cook. Since it's still quite early I thought of cooking something hearty. Clam Chowder, some baked salmon, and salad. I even had enough time to make some bread pudding perfect with our vanilla ice cream.

I wanted to eat as soon as I finished but I thought of him, so i decided to just fix myself a small cup of instant noodles, enough not to make me hungry, while I wait for the time pass. I really want to have dinner with him tonight, even if he won't talk to me.

I'll wait till ten, if he's not here by then I will eat by myself.

Netflix and noodles. brrr..the night is really chilly, I browsed on some movies and ended up watching some classic Keira Knightly- Pride and Prejudice. I was thinking of some other chick flick, but I thought I'll give myself a shot on this one and just relax. I must say, I love and hate Elizabeth for real, I love her guts, but I hate her for being so petty. Sounds just like me.

It was almost ten, I am very much expecting that he won't be home by that time, so I was so surprised when he got in all of a sudden. I guess he was surprised to know that I was in the living room at this hour too, I know it cause we both stared at each other unexpectedly...awkwardly.

"I uhmmm..I made some dinner.." I break the silence first.

He nodded in response, and then I noticed his little cute nose was so red. He was about to say something when instead he started sneezing. One time, two, three and I handed him some tissue.

"Thanks.." he said, finally after ages, a decent talk all thanks to sneezing. His voice was weird when he asked me what I cooked. 

"hmm..sounds good, Imma go and change..okay.." he slowly walked towards his room while still wiping his nose, I could hear him sneeze some more.

While waiting, I decided to move back to the kitchen, warm the food and prep the table.

He came with his hoodie and joggers, he noticed immediately that he's not gonna eat alone.

"so, you haven't eaten since I came?" his pretty face, I miss this so much I really could not even say anything but nod in response.

"okay..let's get this in our tummy then" we both sheepishly smiled at each other while we start serving ourselves some food.

"oh..uhuh..y/n this is really good.." he was referring to the clam chowder, he almost finished the entire pot, although I could see him honestly enjoying it, it was clear to me that he is very sick, but with an apetite to eat.

he started coughing after his last spoon and that's when I finally asked "are you okay? you look sick.." 

"I'm fine. this is just some lame colds" I was about to touch his forehead when he moved as if asking me not to touch him, and that's when he also almost immediately finished his meal too and decided to stand up before me.

"sorry Y/n, Im kinda full right now, just leave the dishes in the sink and I'll do them when ur done. Thanks for cooking.." he smiled bitterly before finally heading back to his room.

My heart sank, with the thought of him trying his best to avoid me. I lost my appetite to eat too, and stood up to clean everything..