No Thanks, I'm Not Hungry [COMPLETED]

Chapter 7: I took a Trip

June 6, 20XX

Dear Diary,

        So I went to the party...

        I got drugged and I was drunk... I also met a guy and he kissed me softly... Then later we had sex.... It felt like the most amazing thing in the world then. I felt happy and euphoric then, but now I felt bad about it and I had a terrible hang over... Not to mention... My butt hurts.... I dunno if that guy would be my boyfriend or not. I didn't know I was gay or bi either. I only recently found out I was gender fluid.

        I hope dad doesn't find out that I lost my virginity... I also hope dad doesn't find out that I drank and had drugs... I kinda actually hope they invite me to another party so I can go on another trip... They put something in the punch and everything after that seemed.... Well mostly fantasy....

        I'll have to ask around who can give me those things again. Maybe I can get them. Or maybe I can just not try them again.... It would be better in the long run wouldn't it?

        I started dressing up in more... Well either emo and Holister stuff. Funny, I get so many looks from girls now and each time I catch them looking at me when I'm walking around town, I always blush from embaressment. Sometimes I hate myself for losing the weight because I get more looks by people and people are friendlier to me... It's all due to the superficial. People only like beautiful people; I doubt I'm beautiful at all, but it's not like I'm super ugly or hideous.

        But hey guess what, I'm wearing that dress I mentioned before. Dad got it for me and I'm wearing it right now. It makes me happy dad can love a weird ball mess like me. A gender fluid, possibly bi or gay or whatever the hell my Sex orientation is, kid.

        Anyway, I better get going. Dad said he was taking us to the water park and we're leaving in ten minutes! 

Bye bye

~Eli Wyatt