Scary Night ✔

Chap 34 (Goodbye)

Another week went by smoothly. Luna was always in the sight of Shawn. Whether it was day or night, eating or sleeping, she was being watched by no one but one and the only person who was afraid to let go of her. Shawn's eyelids getting heavier with every minute passing by at night time when they were in the bed to sleep, but he fought against them just to see Luna sleeping first. It's not that he would drift off to sleep the very next moment following her, he would hardly stay up for a few more minutes to admire the sleeping beauty before him.

"Shawn", he shut lips of Luna by placing a soft peck.

He had believed that every time she would call him out in an earnest manner it was only going to lead toward a conversation where she convinced him to let her go. That was the reason he never listened to Luna. They weren't talking that much. If Luna would try to bring something up, Shawn's best attempt had to only ignore her. Luna thought being a loving boyfriend, Shawn would be an understanding one too but she was wrong.

Understanding doesn't come with love, it's just an indispensable part of relations that nurtures and grows under the warmth of love. Being said of love, we all get selfish when it comes to possessing and loving someone. We want all of that person to be ours. That's what was bothering Luna. She just needed some time. To heal and forget everything from the past. Time is the best medicine to make humans forget and aid the wounds delivered to their hearts. Luna was looking for this.

Luna's POV

"You're the most beautiful person I've ever met in my life, Shawn", I ruffle the fluffy hair of my boyfriend who was lost in deep sleep. Probably dreaming about something wonderful.

Me?

I press a kiss against his forehead and make my way to the bathroom quietly.

After taking a shower, I put my clothes on and grabbed a paper and a pen. Sitting on the edge of the bed, I wrote what I wanted to say to him but he isn't ready yet. Forcing me to stay here like this isn't helping any much since he always seems afraid and I also can't talk about my feeling openly as he doesn't let me. I understand. He's afraid so am I. But I need time. I do. Or I'm afraid I would never be able to heal and love him with all my heart if I stay here anymore. I place the letter on the nightstand and stuff some clothes in a bag. Not that I'm going forever, that's why I'm only taking necessary things with me. With unhurried steps, I walk toward the door when a raspy voice halts me.

"Going without a goodbye?"

I put the bag down and take a few steps toward Shawn. He slowly gets to his feet.

"I'll wait for you", he takes my hand and leaves a peck on the backside of it. I feel as if a heavyweight has been lifted off my shoulders after hearing his words. I never wanted to leave like this. I wanted to hold him tight and tell him to wait for me no matter what. I wanted to give him a goodbye kiss filled with love and thankfulness.

"You better do", I smile.

"Take care of this beautiful self of yours. It belongs to someone else now. You know that. Don't you?", my eyes start welling up after hearing him. I'm happy that I'm getting to say goodbye to him but my heart keeps forming these uncertain feelings.

"I know", as my voice cracks, I grabbed his shirt and smashed my lips against his. He takes my face in his hands and kisses me back. Neither I nor he was ready to let go. I pushed him backward.

"Goodbye", now I understand why goodbyes are always this hard. Indeed, it is a painful way to solve problems. I grab my bag and rush out of his condo. I didn't look back as once I would I'm not sure if I would be able to look ahead of me.

Author's POV

Right after Luna left the room, Shawn broke down to the floor. He let go of his love only to have it again nobody knew when. He was seeing the uncomfortable Luna for the past few days. It wouldn't be wrong to say that he had only been selfish to keep her caged to fulfill his needs and wants and desires. But he realized keeping isn't necessary to love someone. A part of loving someone involves a better understanding of both sides. Though he had to put a rock on his heart to let her go, he was happy that he made this decision cause he had come to know that by trapping Luna here without her consent, he was actually trapping their love that was always meant to be free.

But his heart couldn't get along pretty well with his this decision. It only wanted Luna, a whole for it. After crying for a few minutes his glance fell on the letter that Luna had placed on the nightstand.

"By the time you are reading this, I will have been gone. Don't be sad. I'll come back. I'm taking your love with me in my heart. It will prove to be my best remedy. Your love is my remedy, Shawn. I've only loved you and you will be my only lover in this life I promise you. I...I just need this. Please try to understand. I'll make it up to you and we will do all those crazy things you've created a long list of in your notes huh? When you left your phone unlocked I read it. I'm sorry. But I'm happy that I read it. I'd also love you to shower me, going on for skiing with you, hitting you with snowballs, making snow fairies and every cute thing you want to do I'd love to do it with you. Saying that wait for me would be so greedy of me but I want you to. Wait for me, my love. I love you and only you. Your Luna."

Shawn clutched the letter against his chest and cried harder. As much as he wanted Luna to stay he wanted her to feel ease at heart and this could be only possible by letting her go.

"I will wait for you, Luna."

And this was it. Hearts were meant to be broken. Their shrieks to be heard by no one but only the breakers of them. Loud piercing howls fleeing from the shattered fractions of a crash soul.

If humans were to learn from stories, none of them would've tried to love someone even for once in a lifetime.

Why?

Stories of having breakups at the end of relations, stories of getting hurt at the end of something new, stories of being left alone, stories of being rejected brutally, stories of breathing alone on the abyss of memories lingering in the heart, stories of not being loved in return, stories of not being loved again. But humans do dare. Even the weak ones, sometimes, take a tentative step and turn into a tempted person just to feel the universal emotion, love.

Why they've to make such a ridiculous effort even after foreseeing the awaiting end with their own eyes?

Because this, merely, was the one side of a picture. Like every coin, love has two sides. The other side is a lot brighter, much happier, something soothing, making them feel calm and peaceful. Granting them a life to be lived in utter tranquillity. Where wounds are healed, lovers meet, bodies dance to the rhythm of beating hearts, eyes sparkle the reflection of the only lover, the whole existence is fused with a potion blissfully, where you don't need alcohol to get drunk and be fled from pain, love, solely, works as a strong drug to relieve the pain not only from the body but the heart and the brain too.

Ignoring the one side, humans fall for the other one. Dreaming of their life to be a fairytale written by a merciful writer who would make them end up with their only loved one. But not all writers are the same.

Unfortunately, they are not.

The End.

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A/N: Kidding!!!!!!! Nearly gave you a heart attack. Didn't I?
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