I notice that what I did to Josh was wrong. He looked really sad and I should have stayed with him. I turn to walk home and relies just how far I have walked. It took a long time to walk back and when I got back to the house it was really dark and I could barely see my hands in front of me. I let myself in the house and headed up to my room I opened the door to see that Josh wasn't there. how long was I walking for? I just go over to Joshes room, he's on his computer scrolling through tumbler aimlessly.
"Josh, hey bud. you wanna talk?" I ask gently I don't want to trigger anything.
" There isn't anything to talk about." he says shakily.
" I zoned out at the fight but I want you to know what if harry threatened you in any way, I can be with whatever friends I want." I say hoping that he will talk to me.
"He didn't threaten me, its just I don't want to get between you and Harry, and I don't think he will talk to me any time soon." he says still having his back facing me.
"Josh, you are my best friend and I don't want to lose that." I say putting my hand on his shoulder.
"Bella, I will never be able to get over you, I'm head over heals over the moon kind of love for you. But we can never be together, which is why you just need to pretend that I don't exist." he said brushing my hand away.
"I don't want to act like you don't exist, Josh, you know I love Harry, but I love you too, just as a friend though, can I help you work toward getting over me. Josh I know that this is hard for you but... I want to make our friendship last." I say simply.
"There is only one thing that will help me and I will be a horrible person if I do so." Josh says still not looking at me.
"Josh please." I say. suddenly he spins around in his chair and starts kissing me. he stops, and stares at me. I don't mind him kissing me I just want it to be ok between us. at 16 years old Harry was the only guy I had ever kissed. Yes, at 16 I still hadn't been kissed at 16 before Harry. Josh was the the second since the hospital.
"I'm sorry". he says looking down.
"Don't feel sorry, do you feel better now at least?" I ask looking at him.
"Yea, but I'm still sorry". he says
* a couple months later one month away from Bella's birthday*
(A/N the next chapter will be a recap of all that happened in those months)
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FanfictionWhen her mom dies, the only patent she had, she needs to go live With her brother, she hadn't met Him in her whole life, she doesn't Even know his name.
