The Love that Hasn't show: Time isn't a problem

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All I saw was darkness around me, as I realize I'm having another nightmare of him. I remember what happened that night, almost crystal clear as those memories are like a loop stuck inside my brain, play it over and over again...

I woke up and check the time with my phone, unfortunately it was 1 in the afternoon and I got more than 100 miss called, 200 text that aren't replied and tons of voice message.

I went though my contact, to see who can I call without them yelling at me.

Nope, nope, nope.

I dial a number.

Hello

"It's me, I had an emotional breakdown yesterday, and I ended up of falling asleep at Bonnie's who I brought Mia to visit yesterday."

"Bella, it'll be fine if you and Eli have sex." The person chuckled

"Really? First I seriously didn't have sex with him. Second, if Pa caught a wind of it, Eli will be a dead man."

"I don't see a problem with that."

"Nolan Mark Young. I said, and I quote 'I didn't have sex with Eli.' How many times do you want me to tell you that."

"I'm just messing with you." Nolan laugh, "I'll tell everyone you're still alive and still virgin."

"Actually, not a virgin, just alive." I said, "but that the story for another time. Call Pa first, please, you're his favourite son in law."

"That I did agree, but don't let Eddy heard that." He laughed, "to be fair, Eddy's Ma's favourite son in law, I feel like poor Ethan need a little love."

"He has Helen." I said, "he have enough love."

"That's fair, I'll call you later."

"I love you, don't tell them I had a breakdown though, I don't want them to be worry."

"Love you too, I'll see what I can do."

I hung up the phone, good thing I didn't called Bri, if she knows that I have another breakdown, she'll hurt her hands again.

I stared at the blank screen, then I dial a number.

"Hey, it's me, and I think I need help."

-

I left Bonnie's place after saying goody to all of them, then I stop in front of a place.

The person walked out of the building, "Are you sure?" She pulled me into a hug

"I think I really need this." I said

"Let us do some checkup." She said as she led me in.

"Auntie A?" I called

"Don't worry, if they think you didn't have to be hospitalized after doing your check up, I'll find a therapist for you." Artemis said.

"Thanks, and if I didn't have to be hospitalized, can you not tell Ma and Pa?"

"You know I don't keep stuff like this from little P." She give me a look, "Little Bell, this is going out of control for you. Most of the people who were raped developed a PTSD, even if you don't remember it much because you were drunk."

"I lied." I mumbled.

"What?"

"I remember that night, I just thought that if I say I didn't have memories of it, I might actually forget about it one day." I mumbled, "I didn't remember a lot of detail, but I remember pain and darkness. I beg for him to stop even when I was drunk, but he didn't listen."

"Bella."

"I thought I walked out of his shadow when Eli came into my life. He makes me safe, but it wasn't enough, I can't trust anyone." I said with teary eyes.

"Little Bell, you need serious help." She said as she comfort me, "And you need to tell Pony and Daniel about this, you need to talk. It's their decision to have six kids, and it'll be their responsibility to take care of each one of you when you're hurt, and they should never said that you're a bother."

"But I feels like one." I said, "Look at how worried they were about Will when Nolan died. Look at how much they did for Josh in Uni. They finally didn't have to worry about them, now I became the one with problems."

"Okay little twit." Uncle Arthur showed up with Aunt Chloe, "don't worry about them, and they know something's going on with you, if you don't talk, they're going to be even more worried because they don't know what was going on with you and they automatically thinks to the worst."

"I feel like a burden."

"Never, Little Bell." Aunt Chloe hugged me with all the strength she had.

It almost killed me.

"We'll be here for you." Uncle Arthur said as we started to walk to the front table.

-
Pony

"Hey Mom." I said as I picked up the phone, "What makes you thinks of calling your youngest daughter here today?"

"I drop a cup."

"I see where Bella get that from." I chuckle, "Well, I'm okay, and I'll check on all of my offspring later."

"The cup shattered so you better watch out." She sigh, "Call me if something happened."

"Okay Mom, I love you."

"Love you too. Say hi to my favourite son in law for me."

"Mom, Danny's your only son in law." I said as I hung up.

"Is that your mom?" Danny asked as he pass me a piece of cake.

"Yep, she broke another cup." I said, "I'm a little worried, I mean Nolan called us and told us about Bella, but I think there's more than what she's telling us."

"I know, but we can't force her to open up. She's like you before we met."

"Yeah, I know. I was hoping that Eli can be her safe place, you saw how happy she became when Eli enter her life."

"I wouldn't say happy, but she felt more relaxed." He said.

Then my phone rang again.

"Knock knock." I looked at the screen, and pick up the phone.

"Little P, it's me." Artemis said

"Yes, I know it's you, I can see the caller ID." I said, "What's up, big sis."

"You might want to come to the hospital first."

"Will be there ASAP," I said as I hung up, "Next time, I'm buying Mom and Bella plastic cup so they won't break any of them."