The Love that Hasn't show: Time isn't a problem

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Bella

I'm telling you, because Mia's sitter is sick, and Eli have to work, so after asking every he knew, now I'm babysitting a 5 year old.

We bake cake, play switch, draw, listen to music, watching movies, and we went to park, and you know, just in the early evening, after we finish dinner, Mia went off to bed, since we just drain all of her energy.

Eli said that he had some emergency that needed to be dealt with right away, but he'll come back as soon as possible.

I was cleaning and dancing around with music put on, I figure I should wait until Eli's home before I left, so I text Bridgette and let her know what's going on.

And I help cleaning the house, I'm not a maid, but this house looks like it's been hit by a tornado since Mia has her toys everywhere and Eli's too tired and busy to clean them.

I put back all the toys, vacuum the floor, wipe the wooden floor, and folding clothes for Mia. It's like almost 10 pm after I finished.

Eli's not back yet, so I decided to label everything in his kitchen, for the spices, since the last time I was here, I found out that Eli cannot figure out the difference between cinnamon and chilli by the smell.

I was dancing to my favourite playlist while doing all of these, I mean listen to music is relaxing and dance to it makes all the work fun.

Just when I was about to finish, Eli came back and walk right on to me dancing in his kitchen. It was supposed to be embarrassing, but I guess it wasn't as bad as I though.

He just put his case away, and pull my hands into his just as a new song started, "Dance with me." He said

"I suck at it." I said, but we're still swing to the music.

"I highly doubt that," he said as we dance around the room, "I saw you dance with Bridgette on Lizzy's wedding."

"Well, I am her knight in shining armour." I shrugs

We just dance in silent, I feel safe in his arms, I know I shouldn't be feeling this, but I know from the moment that he show up just when I need it, he make it hard to not like him.

He understands what I'm thinking, he know I didn't like to be look differently, he save me from what I fear the most, he taught me a lesson back in jail, and he give me hope and time when I needed it.

That's the moment I realized, I didn't just have a crush on him.

I realize I was falling for Eli Harley.

Oh god

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Eli

I finally got back home, and I was expected it'll just be Mia upstairs, sleeping.

But the moment I walk into the kitchen, Bella proved me wrong. Seeing her dancing to musics, and label all the jars for spices, I feel thankful, because she hasn't left, but also sorry at the same time.

I look around to see the living room is now clean, all of Mia's toys are put away, floor are all vacuum and wiped. Just at this exact moment, I realize how busy I am with everything going on.

Just as a new song starts, I put away my case, and pull her hands into mine.

"Dance with me."

"I suck at it." She said, I swear, this girl's giving herself too less credit.

"I highly doubt that." I told her as I think about when and where I saw her dance last time, "I saw you dance with Bridgette on Lizzy's wedding."

"Well, I am her knight in shining armour." She shrugs, she looks so cute right now.

We dance in silence, I know I was scared of love because of Bonnie, but after Bella show up again in my life, I think I'm starting to have a little faith in it again.

She has this amazing spirit, she's willing to put other people in front of her, she provides helps whenever other needed, she's strong enough to put herself back together, but not forcing herself to be who she was, she accepted that people changed, and she love and look at everyone the same, she didn't look at anyone differently.

And I'm so thankful that she show up in my life,
She's so thoughtful, normally people wouldn't help this much when they saw that my house was a mess

Those are the reasons I am attracted to her, I know I'm falling in love with her.

But the thought of love scared me.

We looked at each other as we kept dancing, until she accidentally trip over my foot, I caught her before she landed on the ground.

We gaze into each other's eye, and I've done something I know I'll regret later.

I pull her back up and kissed her.

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Bella

At first I was kind of tense because I wasn't expecting it, but I get a little relax after he deepened the kiss, and I rapped my hands around his neck. I want to tell him all my confusion with this kiss.

Was this just the heat of the moment? Does this mean anything to you? Do you and I have the same feeling towards each other? I asked silently, hoping for an answer that I don't think I'll get any time soon.

I want to tell him how safe he makes me feel, how happy am I every time seeing him. I want to tell him I like him and might be falling for him. There's too much thing I want to say with this kiss.

After we pull apart, I move away to avoid eye contact, as much as I want to know all the answers, I'm more afraid if those answers are not what I'm looking for.

"I should go." I said as I turn.

He didn't say any, so I guess this means nothing to him.

Tears fall down my cheeks silently.

So I got hurt, again.