Who Will Love Me Now? (Danisnotonfire & amazingphil & crabstickz & kickthepj)

Chapter 7 - My First Ever Present

As I started to awake all I could see was bright white lights. Things started to become clearer and clearer and clearer. Finally I could see, wait was I alive? I looked around and realised I was in my hospital room. Wait am I floating above people? I looked around the room, I could see the doctors putting the difribulator away while shaking their heads, I saw Dan crying his eyes out with Phil and Chris trying to help. Then I saw it.

On the bed. It was me? Was I dead? "Lily wake up PLEASE I NEED YOU!" Dan screamed into my chest. I was dead, what I wanted had come true. I looked at Dan, Chris and Phil. They cared. They really cared. Suddenly there was some knocking at the door, 3 girls came in. Their eyes red and puffy, you could tell they had been crying, a lot. It was Georgina who spoke first. "Please Dan no! It can't be?" Dan just nodded his head. "NO NO NOT LILY!!" Lauren cried out. Once again everyone was crying. Why did I want to die again? People cared about me, looked like a lot.

I looked at my body. The lifeless, bruised, beaten, cold body that just lay there covered in scars. That was never who or what I wanted to be. I decided I would be where I should be. Not a floating soul but a soul inside a body. Gently I entered my body, wishing and hopping something would happen. I could feel the coldness, I could feel it, my body was so sore. I could hear something. "Beep beep. Beep beep." "DOCTORS LILY'S AWAKE" "SHE'S AWAKE!" I heard people scream. Wait what? I was awake?

That meant a was alive. Slowly I tilted my head towards Dan. I could be with the one I loved. And the one that loved me back. "Lily never ever do that again." Dan stuttered through his tears. I wasn't going to take my eyes off him, not unless I had to. Suddenly Doctors and Nurses sprinted in. They started clapping and jumping up and down with Joy. I looked over at my friends, yes my actual real life friends. I was completely confused. "They tried the difribulator several times and couldn't get you back. You were dead and they said your heart wouldn't beat. Suddenly you just woke, it wasn't supposed to happen. But it did." Dan explained with the biggest grin u had ever seen on anyone's face before. Most of the doctors left but 2 of them stayed just to check me out.

After about 20 minutes of tests being done I was declared okay. Sadly I had to stay in for at least a week just to make sure. That's when I noticed a black bag on the floor, I was curious to know what it contained, next to it was my bag which had my own music, art, dance steps, basically my life of enjoyment in one bag. I was that sad.. I peered over to try and see what was in it. "I think your girl wants to see your surprise Dan." Phil giggled coming to sit next to me. As Dan got up I snuggled into Phil, he put his arm round me. After Dan had picked everything up he saw Phils arms round me. "You keep away from my girl, I don't care if your my BF or not!" Dan seemed very serious. "I never realised you were gay Dan?" Beth chuckled. "Carrying on...your surprise." Dan handed me the bag. I just held it.

Wow. "Open it Lil?" Phil asked in a curious tone. "Sorry. This is the first present I have ever received since I can remember." I explained, you could hear the nerves coming through my voice. I looked round the room, everyone was gobsmacked, all apart from Dan who joined me ad Phil on the bed hugging me. They understood.

Slowly I opened my present. Chris, Dan and Phil all got their phones out, I hid behind them and the pillows. "Hello! Hey! Hallo! Bonjour! And welcome to me! Well you all remember me telling you about a beautiful, wonderful, amazing girl who meant a TONE to not just me, not just me and little Philly but also to our mate Chris. Well here she is, recovering. Looking as beautiful as always." Dan was talking to his phone...what on earth? "Which mustn't be very then if this is how beautiful I normally look." I laughed at him. "Can I ask though? What are you 3 doing?" I was being curious now. The room fell silent.

Suddenly I was that small girl who didn't know anything again. I sunk into my bed wanting everyone to stop looking at me. "We'll you obviously know what Youtube is right?" Georgina started to explain. "Wait You what?" I butted in, what were they all talking about? My head was already messed up. "If you let us film you, and we'll edit anything that you don't like out, then we'll explain when we get back home?" Phil suggested. "Fine..." I sighed kind of reluctantly.

I hated cameras, not just a little but as much as I wanted to run into every store and break every single one. I looked back down at my present and carried in opening it. That's when I saw what it was. My smile grew my miles each second. It was a guitar! My very own! Tears started to stream down my face, for the first time in my life it wasn't because of pain or sadness. It was joy. Dan dropped his phone on the bed and ran to me. "I hate seeing you cry, even if its good or bad." Dan spoke while wiping away all my tears. I took my dogtags off, slowly and gently I pulled off my guitar pick then I attempted to put my necklace back on. I was failing miserably. Dan scuttled over to help.

Finally I pulled the guitar out of the casing. It had the most amazing strap I had ever seen, beautiful. Carefully I slipped it over my head into my shoulders. I fitted perfectly. That's when it clicked....I had never, not once in my life, performed in front of a person. I was too shy. Quickly but delicately I took it back off and put it back in the bags. "Ain't you gonna play something?" Dan questioned me, his face full of worry that he'd done something wrong. I put my hands out to indicate to Dan to come sit with me. By now everyone was looking slightly worried. "I've erm, never played in front of people." I said bowing my head, ashamed of what I just said.

Phil looked at me with the most shocked expression ever. "You're amazing though?" Phil still having his mouth open like a goldfish. "What did you say?!" I almost shouted at him, "CHRIS! You promised you didn't show anyone! How could you?" I couldn't believe him, why do I ever trust anyone. "He didn't show us, it was on the screen when we came in, Chris was in the bathroom and both Phil and I were being nosy. That's how we saw." Dan held me close as he was explaining. I couldn't wait to get out, wait. Was I going to live with Dan and Phil? Oh gosh. They would hear me play, see my artwork, read my stories, watch me dance. They would see everything. I wouldn't be able to hide anymore.

I looked over at Dan who looked so tired, bless him I think he never left unless he was told to by the doctors, even then sometimes he put up a fight. "Dan, you can go home you know. You need sleep, all of you." I looked round, everyone was really sleepy and tired. "Phil, Chris, Beth, Georgina and Lauren can go. One thing I said I would never do, is leave you." Dan looked deep into my eyes and held my hand tight. It was obvious he never wanted to let go. "Do you mind if we go and get a shower? We'll be back soon." Beth explained as she gave me a hug. Lauren, Beth and Georgina waved goodbye, Chris and Phil went with them, everyone needed showers, including Dan, but he didn't want to leave me. I was starting to feel really tired inside, it had been a long day for me even though it was only 12pm. I pulled my quilt up and snuggled down. Although I was starting to drop off to sleep I kept hold of Dan's hand.

"Lily, if your going to sleep squeeze my hand. I'm scared." Dan sounded really concerned. I waited a minute and then sharply I squeezed his hand really tight. As I did so I heard a little "okay okay OKAY! Owch!" From Dan, oops, I think I may of hurt him...I kissed his hand. "That any better?" I giggled. "My lips hurt too." I looked up at Dan, he had his little puppy dog eyes. "They'll have to hurt until I get better." I said sleepily. "You tired?" Dan asked being concerned. "Sorry, yeah I am." I explained. "Don't be sorry." Dan climbed onto the bed and pulled me close. Steadily I drifted off to sleep, I felt safe, loved, not alone. I was happy. The next hurdle was about living with them. Would it work? 2 weeks then we will know.