Beyond Fangirl

Date Plans

Mari called the next day at 10 o'clock. I gave her a quick review of my date last night but she made me rehearse conversations word for word. Mari complained about how lucky I was that I had such a wonderful, and hot, boyfriend. I told her that it was only the first date and it may not work out but she me she is willing to take a flight to London and slap me on the face to see if it would help my ability to see the obvious. Despite my negativity, I did think it went well and I hope he asks me to go out again.

I woke up on Sunday with a phone full of new texts. A few from Dan and thousands from my sister, Rae and Mari. I checked Mari's first. There were a number of links and videos that I scrolled past. My sister sent me a message talking about a guy in her physiology class that looked like Dylan O'Brien and how adorable and smart he was. I grinned at that. Dan sent me a text asking if I wanted to meet up for coffee sometime. I replied, saying that I would love to and I'm free at lunch if that isn't too early. He replied only a few minutes later and said that we could meet at the cafe in front of my flat in a few hours.
After 2 and a half hours if listening to music while surfing the internet, I left my flat with my purse and my book. Knowing I was 20 minutes early, I thought it would be nice to hang out there and read a bit. I opened the door and walked to the counter to order. When my latte arrived, I took a seat at a table beside the window and opened up my book. I was reading The Importance of Earnest again by Oscar Wilde. I read it for the first time in grade 9 when my sister had brought it home to read for school. Because she was only a year older then me, I had to read it again the next year as well. I was in love with it. For my 17th birthday, Rae had bought me a falling apart copy of it and replaced the cover with her own. Since I got my own copy, I had read it more times then I could count. It's a pretty short book. Probably about 150 pages, so I pretty much had it memorized. Almost exactly on time, Dan walked through the door to the cafe. He found me right away and sat across from me at the table.
"What are you reading?"
"The Importance of Being Earnest." I reply. "It's a play by Oscar Wilde." He nods. I close the book and place it on the table, making sure it doesn't land in any coffee or water that may have been on the table. Neither one of us filled the silence. We sat at the table, both staring at our laps.
Finally Dan spoke up, "I'm sorry. I know you said that it was okay but I feel like I said too much last night. I threw too many things at you because I felt like I only had one chance." I inhaled and opened my mouth as if I was going to say something but I couldn't think of anything to say. I looked down at my lap. Everyone else in the cafe was happy or blank faced. They were immersed in their laptops, books or conversation.
"Dan." Should I tell him that I love him? No, you can't do that on a second date. Should I tell him I'm a fangirl? That's creepy. Could I tell him that I think about him the same way as he thinks about me? I opened my mouth again and closed it. I looked up and saw Dan's face red with embarrassment. "I-I don't know what to say. I could tell you that I have been a huge fan for 5 years or more. I could say that some of the things you said last night made me totally overjoyed. Everything that I want to say right now would be the truth but it might...be too much." This time I was the one with the red face. I looked at the floor and I heard Dan stand up. Shit, that's it. He's walking away and I lost my chance. I put my head in my hands and my eye glisten with tears but then I feel a hand resting on me knee.
"Lil, did you really think I was gonna literally walk away from you. How lame do you think I am?" He gave me a small smile from the chair beside me. He then lifted his finger up to my chin and leaned forward. Once his lips touched mine a shock of electricity ran through my veins. However short the kiss was, it felt like eternity. He dropped his hand back onto my knee and leaned back against the chair. I paused, feeling kind of shocked.
"Lame enough to kiss a girl on the second date to stop her from possible tears." I replied with a smile and he smiled back. His whole face lit up when he smiled and his eyes sparked.

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I picked up my ringing phone and put it up to my ear.
"Hello?"
"Hey Lilly. It's Rae."
"Oh gosh. Good! So you know how I went on a date with Dan last night?"
"How could I forget?" She asked like it was an insanely obvious answer.
"Well, we met up at a coffee shop again today a couple hours ago and he said that he thought he messed things up yesterday. But then I said something about how I totally disagreed and the he kissed me!"
"Oh my god! Really? Like Dan Howell kissed you? Holy fuck!"
"I know, I know, I know, I know!" I squealed. "I can't believe it!" Rae and I spent the next few minutes fangirling on the phone until I told her I had to get some sleep for orientation tomorrow.
To be honest, I was super nervous. I knew everything I had to but I had a sinking feeling that I wouldn't fit in or it would be too difficult.