The light in her darkness (Slow Updates)

Chapter eight

My eyes flew open, I sat up quickly on my couch I looked around a bit as realization hit me, it was a dream.

I felt like crap, of course it was a dream, I scoffed, 'we're going to england' I mocked myself.

I really wanted it to be true though, but what I want doesn't ever matter.

He was probably in his apartment working, while Ada prepared dinner for him, after dinner he would turn on the TV and watch his favourite show science uncovered, while I watched him.

I shook my head violently... I would not think of him anymore, I must forget he ever existed... I told myself even if I knew it was impossible to forget someone like him.

Why did he have to save me that night?
I really wanted to die, maybe if I'd died o wouldn't be having this feeling I have right now.

He'd saved me from pain then... But now he's the one causing it.

The thought of that made me want to go crazy, I just wanted to cry and cry and cry till I'd forgotten him and everything he'd done.

But I'd cried way too much in the last couple of days, I needed to try something else.

I put on my hoodie and went jogging, the cool breeze and flashing lights helped clear my head a bit. It probably wasn't safe for me to be jogging so late but I couldn't just go back to bed with all the thoughts I had raging in my head, and jogging wasn't even helping!

I came to a stop to catch my breath a little, my hands on my knees.

When my breathing had slowed down a bit, I looked around... Shit, I had no idea where I was.

What was I thinking?
'Stupid, stupid girl' my subconscious said.

I decided to jog a bit further, I don't know what was wrong with me, perhaps I wanted to get kidnapped and killed or something.

All of a sudden a car skidded of the road, the lights were blinding before I felt a sharp pain at my side, the force pushed me and I flew back and landed with a thud on the floor.

All I felt was blinding pain all over my body but my side in particular.

I thought my hip bone had broken or something.

I heard the sound of a car door opening.

"Are you OK?" A male voice asked, I couldn't speak, it was as though if I tried to talk I would choke and die.

My eyes were sealed shut because of the pain... When I tried to open them my vision was blurry.

"You need to call the ambulance now" the man yelled, apparently he wasn't alone.

"You're gonna be OK..."he said, I could hear the sadness in his voice " I'm so sorry"

I wanted to tell him it was OK, that I was OK, but I still couldn't talk.
The pain seemed to be getting worse with every passing second.

I passed out a while after that.

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My eyes opened slowly, all I could see was white, and it was very blurry, I blinked severally to clear my vision.

For a moment I thought I'd died and gone to heaven.

I looked around and of course I was in a bloody hospital... The last thing I remembered was a man speaking to me, telling me he was sorry, and Jacob.

"Doctor! She's awake" the unmistakable voice of Ivan called out.

I jolted up out of reflex and the white pain I felt was unlike anything I'd ever felt before.