I was on the balcony, watching the stars and moon in the sky. That reminds of us, like you supposed to tell me before. I, represent the moon and you were the stars. Stars cannot stay longer if there is a sunlight, while the moon is still there 'til dusk and dawn.
"Good night babe. I'm gonna get some sleep right now. I'll call you tomorrow, okay? I love you."
Hearing those lines makes my heart ache. Justifying the situation where I'm on right now makes my life miserable. Here I am suffering the pain that you gave, but I still choose to love you even if my mind tells me to stop.
"Babe, wait me there. I'm on my way. See you, I love you."
While i'm on the car, I was crying silently. Choosing you was one of my best decision. Having you in life was the best reason to live for. Thank you, for letting me love you. Thank you, Gardner. I love you too.
"Oh my, what happened? Miss, are you okay? Still with me?"
Someone asked me and I didn't get spare to look at her. I was looking at you, and hoping you were fine. Hoping you didn't get hurt or scratch.
"K-Kendra? Love, what happened? Love, are you okay?"
My tears starts falling from my doe eyes, I touched your cheeks and squished it like what I always do. I really wanted to tell you that I am hurt, I am not okay, but I can't.
"Babe, oh my god. Are you okay? Does it hurt? Should i call an ambulance?"
My eyes landed on that girl, and smiled at her. She's pretty and normal. She really matched you're ideal girl, Gardner.
"Allysah, go inside. Stay there! Go inside! Now!"
You locked-off our hands between, and still I am crying. I can't take of my eyes of you, Gardner. Please, promise me one thing. That you will love that girl like what you did to me. I hope you will cherish and value her. I hope she is the right one for you. I will it pray it to God, just for you.
Allysah, please take care this man. Please comfort him when he's emotionally drained. Please help him to encourage his existence. Please tell him that you love him so much. Please, please, don't leave Gardner no matter what.
"I am so sorry, Kendra. I am so sorry, I really do. I love you, please fight for me. Please breath. God, help me! God please give my wife a second chance! Please!"
Sorry being an useless wife, Gardner. You ended your happiness just to feels okay. But I didn't think, that this was coming. I am sorry, I shouldn't forced you.
I started to close my eyes, and begging God to get me here. I've done so far, Lord. I've done enough. I can't take it anymore. I am tired. I am exhausted. I am lost. I am useless. I am drained.
If loving you is a painful desire, then I am ready to be obsessed. If choosing you is a sin, I am ready to suffer in death penalty. If having you in my life is miserable, then I'll be sorrowful.
"This woman can't talk. She is mute. Lord Jesus! Spare this woman. She deserves to be alive."
No, I don't have reason anymore to live in this awful world. It is very hurtful to live, you're life is at stake. I am so sorry, but I want to rest my soul from what I got when I was still breathing.
"Is it painful to live?"
Yes, it is. Pain was unbearable that you cannot noticed you're soul were already dead, even if you're still existing in that world. All I want is to be loved and to be in loved. But I guess, destined don't want to.
I am so sorry, Gardner. I have to leave you even if I don't want to. But I can't take it anymore. You seems like near to me, but it feels like we have space between us.
