Adopted by the Sidemen

"Join me on the journey of recovery"

After JJ gave me the camera and stuff I went back into my room and set it up at my desk.

"Hello, I have no clue if this will ever go anywhere except my computer or a hard drive but that isn't the point. If you don't know me, which you probably don't, I am Sophie Bradley. I'd quite like to be Sophie Bradley-Nightingale but I don't make those decisions. I am Josh and Freya's daughter, No they didn't have a baby 15 years ago. I am adopted." I started "My biological parents were horrible people who died in a plane crash when I was 8, No I wasn't on the plane they left me home alone and planned to leave me for 2 weeks with barely any food in the house. Like I said, horrible people. Because of this, I suffer from 7 different mental illnesses and also dyslexia but that's genetic sadly." I continued, "Anyway, I wanted to document my journey to recovery so that if this does ever go anywhere it could hopefully help other people. So I am going to introduce small things, that my OCD or ED tell me, into everyday life to hopefully be on the road to recovery." I finished with a small smile "Now I am aware that I'll never be cured, but I can lessen the issues so they aren't as bad. The first thing I did was make a list of goals and different ways to achieve it" I said pointing the camera to my computer screen. "So you can see here that I have pictures, quotes, links to articles, all that sort of stuff for me to learn about new strategies and mechanisms and I recommend you do this too, I hope you will join me on the journey of, recovery," I said smiling sweetly before turning off the camera and putting on youtube to watch.

I hadn't slept. I wasn't tired. I was overthinking. 'What if I'm not allowed to post this' 'what if people hate me' 'what if they send me back'. 'What if...' that was all I could think about all night. Plus I did sleep from 2 pm until 11-ish pm. My thoughts were interrupted by my phone buzzing, my alarm was going off that means it's 7:30. I got out of bed and made it up before grabbing clothes and going to the bathroom to shower. Once I was showered and dressed, I went back to my room and turned on my camera after I dried my hair. "Hey, welcome to Day 1 of recovery. Last night I was up all night overthinking so I made a list of things I can do to recover" I say putting air quotes around 'recover'. "So today I will be wearing a small bit of purple, somehow. I'll find something with a little purple on it." I smiled at the camera and turned it off. 

"Morning Soph," Simon said looking tired "Morning si, did you just wake up?" I ask laughing a little at his hairdo "Its 8 am so yes." He said sticking his tongue out at me "Why are you up so early? Oh, I didn't sleep btw" I say "We're filming today, don't panic you're not going to be in it" He smiles at me and walks away downstairs. I was a little confused at first but then I realised that they are YouTubers, dumb bitch. I picked up my phone and went downstairs and into the kitchen to see that my medications had moved from the left side of the fridge to the right side. "Don't touch my stuff," I said under my breath I picked them up and took the ones I had to take in the morning. "GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!" I heard JJ booming from upstairs, today is not my day. 

I walked upstairs and went into my parents' room. "Goodmorning mum." I said hugging her "you know I love you?" She said to me hugging me tightly "No? but that was a question, so what d'you want me to do?" I said sitting up "I want you to shut up" Josh groaned from under the covers "Good morning to you too dad." I said rolling my eyes "I want you to push Jide down the stairs" Freya said looking pissed off. "Nope," I said popping the 'p'. I sprint to where JJ was at the top of the stairs. "Hi?" He said and I noticed he was filming. "Ok so 1. Freya told me to push you down the stairs but I won't because I'm a nice person." I said loud enough for mum to hear. "and I called them mum and dad" I whispered in his ear, he high five me and said "that's great kid" I smiled at him and went back to josh and freya's room.

"So a little birdy told me you are filming today? Can I come?" I said lying on the bed "Of course, how come you're already showed and dressed?" josh asked me standing up to get dressed "I wake up at 7:30, but I didn't sleep last night. I did sleep from 2 pm to 11 pm yesterday so..." He nods and goes to the bathroom. I got up and went to the kitchen where Simon, vik and Ethan were talking. "Morning lad" Ethan said to me, I gave him a confused look and pointed to my chest "I have tits, definitely not a lad. Vik do you like cereal?" I ask "Yeah? why?" He asked me "Out of um.." I opened the cupboard and saw 3 boxes "cheerios and coco pops, which is your favorite?" "I like them both" He said I nodded and pulled out the boxes to look at the calories, both were high but the cheerios were lower. I  poured some into a bowl and put some milk in them too. "I'm gonna attempt to eat these but if I can't Vik, you can have them" I said before walking upstairs and closing my door.